I dont feel like like living anymore (Depression)

Have you sought help from a doctor or a specialist? They might have an answer for you. It doesn't say anywhere on your post if you have done so. In times like this it is so important to tell people you love, like your parents. It is difficult and embarrassing, but fighting all this by yourself is worse. Especially at your age.

 

What about a specialist? They know far more than a regular doctor. There are so many physical tests for this problem which you can find on Wikipedia.

I also have some book recommendations for you which I will post tonight to help with your mind.

In the meanwhile, look up a guy called Nick Vujicic. See his condition, and then see his wife. There is always hope.

 

We are all in the same position. My penis is dead too. You have to stay strong. Read this: http://www.yourbrainrebalanced.com/...can-you-help-why-am-i-back-to-flatline.10271/

I want you to read this over and over again. Look at this guys struggle and learn from it. If you are PMO free in the next 2 years. You will only be 16. By then if you don't PMO, you WILL HAVE YOU LIFE AHEAD OF YOU. You will have strong hard erections. 2 years later, you will be enjoying regular sex.

Stay on this forum, write a journal, read as much and learn as much about nofap as you can. This will help you over come your addiction.

Do not try, make it a must. Trying is no good. I MUST do this!!! Give it all you got!! Don't do this half heartly.

 

It sounds like you have general anxiety disorder. That's likely why you M'ed so much in the first place... I've had GAD since birth and recently found out it can be caused by a magnesium deficiency.

In conjunction with nofap, after a month of taking 200mg of magnesium per meal, my panic attacks have mostly gone away, and my penis, which has been dead since 14 (I'm 26), is starting to get feeling back... I couldn't feel hot/cold, scratches or anything.

 

50 days. Like a year straight without P, though.

I got addicted to MO at 5 and messed up my pelvic floor and... brain. I only had normal function for like a week in my life at age 14 . Then it died completely... numbness haha. What the hell. I didn't even find out I had a problem until years later. Being functional was such a short part of my life that I thought normality wasn't normal. Didn't have internet and was completely sheltered from sex. That led me down a path of P (had some function with P for a year maybe, didn't feel very good, though) and video game addiction.

You probably should tell your parents. I didn't... and it has sort of driven me insane. I became suicidal as well . Fear of not getting better has been the cause of every single relapse on nofap. It's not the pleasure, it never really felt good. It's the thought of not getting better and having to live out my life alone. It freaking sucks.

But I've been more hopeful recently because I've had days where sensitivity and function have returned to a degree and I can even feel warmth during urination. I don't even remember the last time I felt that, if ever. I've been taking 200mg of magnesium per meal for a month along with nofap and it definitely helped me.

 

While MOing during pre-pubescence, I always clenched the muscle one uses to stop urinating. This, usually accompanied with an anxiety disorder, can cause the muscles to get trapped in that clenched state, putting constant pressure on the pudendal and pelvic nerves.

Due to modern agricultural practices, magnesium is a mineral most people are at least slightly deficient in now. Here's a site explaining what it can cause: http://drsircus.com/magnesium/magnesium-deficiency-symptoms-diagnosis/

To fix these problems, the best thing to do is take magnesium supplements and not PMO.

 

your dick is perfectly normal. sexual drive comes from your head so repair your brain & be happy

 

^ bump