Almost 1 month of PMO "Hard Mode" abstinence...True or False?

***Note: I understand that there is a separate thread for "New Fapstronauts", but since I don't care too much for the whole social welcome/introductory phase I decided to dive straight into the deep-end here and spill the beans right off the bat. Actually, it's not that I don't care, I do, it's just that right now time is of the essence and I need specific information quickly so that, if I need to, I can get on the right track and continue the battle. In all honesty, nothing else matters at the moment. I NEED to know.
As you might have already noticed, this post is quite an elaborative one, however, I believe this is necessary in order to explain thoroughly so that you may provide me, in turn, with a proper, knowledgable answer. Keep in mind that I'm not trying to digress or "beat around the bush" per-say, I just really think certain details should be mentioned before any conclusion is to be made in terms of my current reboot attempt. You may not agree, so please thouroughly consider this before deciding to read on. Thank you.***


Hello there, stranger. Thank you for clicking on my very first post. With much hope, whatever words that are exchanged from here on out will not only benefit myself, but you as well. Here is my reboot story thus far...

I began my Porn/Masturbation/Orgasm abstinence on January 1st, 2018 - for "obvious reasons" (referring to both the date and the decision to abstain) - with the intention to abstain for as long as I am able to. I became a so-called "Fapstronaut" nine day later, on the tenth of January.

To explain myself, I would like to specify that at the time that I am writing this, it has been a full 28 days since I have last consciously and/or willfully done the following:

#1. Accessed pornography
#2. Masturbated or sexually-stimulated myself
#3. Induced an orgasm

If I may, please reconsider the significance of the conditional statement:
"...since I have last consciously and/or willfully done the following..."

Do you see what I mean, that is, in relation to the title of this post? (If you don't, go back and re-read the title of this post and then read the conditional statement - multiple times, if need be - within the surrounding textual contents.)

To explain myself even further...

Spoiler: Click this to learn of my so-called "Dirty Acts"

Yes, there have been times in the last couple of weeks that I have caught myself googling various "modeling photos" of good-looking girls/women (the type you would commonly see at the gym or the beach, ex. 1980's California high-cut bikini surfing girls, Yes, there have been instances that, after coming to full-consciousness, I found myself thrusting my body against my bed and enacting the "missionary" sex position, and lastly Yes, indeed, there have also been occasions that I have awakened in the early morning hours to discover my PJ bottoms soaked in wet cum due to a nightly ejaculation + orgasm, a.k.a. a "wet dream".

So yes, it is defiantly, 100% true. I have experienced all three of those rather "dirty acts" during the past month of January and I cannot deny them. The deeds have been done and cannot be reversed. Therefore, without further adieu, the million-dollar question remains:

"Have my experiences (either conscious, unconscious, or both) entailed a relapse in my ongoing Porn/Masturbation/Orgasm Reboot?"

Once you have your answer, please explain your reasoning.

However, before you write me your opinion, consider this: What if I told you that, within no more than a minute or two (usually just a matter of seconds) of becoming aware of my surroundings, I was able to resist the colossal temptation and discontinue whatever filthy activity I was engaged in at the time? Would that change your mind? Anyway, what I am trying to ultimately convey here is that although I haven't been able to completely avoid the temptations, I've been successful in rapidly terminating them during their initial stages.

In conclusion, regardless if you've made up your mind that I need to reset my day counter immediately and continue to do so whenever I spontaneously catch myself in the "dirty acts" or if you tell me that I should be proud of my strong-will to become successful with my PMO abstinence and the courage to push onward with my reboot, can't we all agree that there's something to be said for an individual who, while committing and enjoying a sexual-related act, is able to overrule their erotic/lustful thoughts, and just cancels that shit right then and there?

That is all. Thank you for taking the time to read this. It means quite a bit to me...and my future depends on it. Good luck to you, stranger.

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P.S. Due to the fact that I have only been a member of NoFap for less than 3 weeks, I still have a very basic knowledge of the site and its various "nooks and crannies" of information. That being said, there's quite a decent chance that, perhaps, these rules or guidelines of rebooting have been overlooked by yours truly and were there all along. If that is the case, then please let me know and link them to me down bellow.

 

Well, it seems that so far I've received two completely different responses. Thank you guys. They have been taken into consideration. I'm going to wait and see what others have to say about this before making my final decision.

 

In following-up my previous message from a few days ago, I would like to reveal my final decision in regards to the continuation or the restart of my current Porn, Masturbation, Orgasm (PMO) reboot. Like I said earlier, I have taken into consideration all five of the responses that I've received in the last few days.

Spoiler: My Ultimate Decision is...

I will "stay the course" of my reboot and I have decided to "not reset" my PMO day counter.

To give you some choice here, I went ahead and wrote two different versions of the explanation/reasoning for my decision. Both versions are found within the spoilers bellow. Select whichever you prefer and/or whichever you have time to read.

Spoiler: The "Condensed" version

In response to all who believe that I have relapsed: Yes, I certainly agree with you now that I have learned a few things about avoiding triggers and know better than to continuously tempt myself with so-called "P-SUBs". You must realize, however, that this was not the case when I kicked-off my abstinence on New Year's Day. At the time, I was recklessly-eager to get going, rather than stepping-back for a moment to look around on NoFap in order to educate myself about the reboot process. The truth is that my initial interpretation of Porn, Masturbation, and Orgasm was very much a "black and white" one: These 3 things (PMO) are off-limits, everything else (including P-SUB's) is not. So I just went for it, hoped for the best, expected the worst, and that was that. Therefore, due to the fact that I am still abstaining from PMO on "my own terms", I believe the only action that is necessary is that I make the right adjustment to update/correct my terms and move confidently forward with rebooting. And, ladies and gentlemen, so I have: As of February 1st, No more P-SUBs of any kind, period. Any "intentional" violation of this rule will result in an automatic relapse with absolutely no excuse not to reset my PMO counter. To conclude, my only hope for all of you who are still not convinced is that you respect my decision. Thank you.

Spoiler: The "Extended" version

It has been over 1 month since I've decided to abstain from Porn, Masturbation, and Orgasm - starting on 1/1/18. During this time I have NEVER "intentionally" viewed pornography, masturbated/physically stimulated myself in a sexual manner, nor induced an orgasm. Now, I have had many instances (sometimes multiple times per-day) where I was "borderline relapse" so-to-speak, but I can proudly say that this is, indeed, a fact.

However, while that may be true, I would be lying if I were to say that the rules have not been bended. (If you would like to know exactly what I've done wrong, go back to my main post and click the "spoiler" button) No, I'm no angel - far from it. In fact, a couple people went as far as to say that I have not only bended the rules, but aparently I've snapped them in half and broken them. They disprove of my abstinence and conclude that I've relapsed without a doubt, twice even. I agree. However, there is one thing that saves me here and that is the fact that I began my reboot in a very straightforward manner. My old conditions were plain and simple: No Porn, No Masturbation, and No Orgasms. That's it. Everything else was fair game. If I was able to live without those 3 things then I was a truly successful Fapstronaut. That was then.

Now as February is upon us, I have realized that what I'm viewing (P-Subs, as opposed to the "real deal") leads nowhere good and does absolutly nothing for me. I'm constantly tempting myself for no reason at all and just wasting my precious time. A good analogy for this situation would be a parent giving a freshly-baked cookie to a little hungry child, but right as the child is about to consume the cookie in its mouth the parent pulls it away, stuffs it in their own mouth, and begins chewing the cookie very slowly with their mouth wide-open. Basically, I let myself see just enough skin to get me excited, but never enough that it crosses the "nudity boundary-line" if you will. Along with my decision to continue my "No PMO Streak", I have also made the decision that there will be absolutally no more of this daily "teasing" going on as I have permanently amended my Reboot guidelines. Doing so will cause an immediate relapse and I will have to reset my day counter to zero. Having said that, February 1st marked the first day that this amendment was put into effect. So far, So good!

Wish me luck, or should I say...... Wish Me Strength!