Freedom February PMO-Free Challenge Thread

Days 1 and 2 completed! I have a really good day ahead of me today.

 

I'm in for the challenge.Going for full month.Already relapsed in February (yesterday) but no big deal.

 

Day 1. Got myself an AP, triggers list, good practices list. I’m ready.

 

Checking in guys. 1st day in. I just had a craving. I'm not sure at this point but I feel using my laptop in a particular setting, IE, my desk in itself may be a trigger for me. I also found that letting myself idle and forget about the goals of my day also put me into a state of boredom, and I wind up looking for porn when I don't have anything to do.

Maybe it's best to keep myself busy with other things, be mindful of the craving, know what's going on physiologically, but then let the craving drift away.

 

Day 3 done! D&D was a hell of a lot of fun, as was just spending time with those friends. Hope to do it again very soon.

 

I m in.

 

Phew. made it past midnight. I'm using mindfullness to keep track of cravings right now. Feels good to be able to see them coming, feel the moment, let it pass, and be able to act appropriately.

 

Not been active for some tine, esp in 2018

But I'm back after some set backs and relapses

My challenge is to keep it one day at a time

Here we go

 

Also trying to develop daily meditation habit

Still wip for now

 

Relapsed just at the end of day 4 it seems. I will carry on now starting afresh. I've reset my counter in my badge, and I've posted about my relapse in the 60 day challenge and will be immediately restarting it. Didn't full on PMO but I have been looking at Psubs the last couple of days and this time looked at P and M'd for a total of 10 seconds before stopping myself. I'm really glad I did stop myself before Oing because the feeling of finishing to P is way worse than this (already bad) feeling I have currently.

Here's to the rest of February clean!

 

Can the moderators do like some sort of war???? Then teams that win will go on to fight the next team etc until the last team wins and get to be immortalized on the forum somewhere or something else for an incentive. It’d take some moderating and honesty, but if everyone just report themselves it should go smoothly

 

Day 65 starting..

 

I'm in too. Going for a no PMO February!

 

So last night I reset my timer because of a relapse due to looking at P and M'ing for a few seconds, but stopping myself from finishing. This morning I was still gripped by the urges and I fully PMO'd. Thankfully it didn't negatively affect my anxiety too much at university, which is promising for the progress I've made over the last two months. I reset my timer again to the appropriate starting time (even if it was only 12 hours after the first reset). Although I wish I had stopped myself this morning, I'm okay with the fact I fully relapsed. I'm going to be cautious of the chaser effect now.

I've deactivated my twitter and instagram accounts, and I've unfollowed almost all people and pages on facebook to make it entirely boring for me to use. I deleted snapchat a couple of months ago. I even had to block a couple of news websites because they were causing me to waste time.

I'm hoping these measures take me off my phone more often and let me engage with the people around me.

I plan on completing the rest of February PMO free, and my next goal is to complete the 60 day challenge, having failed just over halfway through.

 

JPizzle, shouts to you, seen you in the January's post. Glad to see your posting here still holding yourself accountable. We got this man.

Alright.

So I've having incredible urges at day 3. I'm realizing they are there, and that my subconscious is influencing my behavior to seek out arousal. I think this is the source of my issues: the seeking of arousal, and who knows, at a deeper level, maybe the seeking of APPROVAL. I'm aware of it, and shut off porn right away just now. I can't even imagine life continuing on, starting a family with my girlfriend, and being a good father while simultaneously being addicted to porn. In a way, maybe it's my OWN approval that I'm seeking, not even anyone elses! My rational self tells me I certainly DON'T approve of this addiction existing within myself. My NON-rational brain is telling me, "it won't hurt, you know you just want to feel good." I've had it with this.

It's a very strange but gratifying feeling, knowing that my advanced brain, my frontal lobe, is in conflict with my midbrain, where my limbic system is on overdrive creating urges to masturbate to porn or artificial arousing stimuli, since this I've gotten so much of that. I've had it. I need my frontal lobe, my decision making center, my rational thinking center, to win this battle over my immature midbrain.

Whatever you believe in, God, science, or both; both tell us that artificial stimulation for sexual pleasure is wrong, either immoral or unhealthy and not what are bodies are meant to do. I think the posts which state that the idea is not to focus on the addiction and pursuit of artificial sex (further stimulating our limbic system and causing our frontal lobes to rationalize) but rather to focus on what will truly build meaningful gratification in this life, and to give back to those who are in it.

 

@Alexander @DerNeuMann I am on Day 33, I had wet dream i guess but i don't remember exactly what happened, just woke up when it released at night.
I was totally stressed today, didn't like to do anything, everything seems boring. I am totally frustrated.
What should i do i am not understanding? I won't fap that's sure. But how to handle this anxiety. Please tell.

 

Hi
Your wet dream is a good thing. Just allow it and don't let it bother you. In the next few weeks they might become more frequent so please don't be anxious about them. They are natural and will help you make the long term.

 

Please don't say in next few weeks it will become more frequent as it was too heavy to handle myself yesterday, everything was boredom for me, anxiety at peak.
Yes i will not leave any stone unturned for this withdrawl of addiction of PM.
Thanx buddy.

 

Unfortunately resetting my timer again. Had another relapse because of the chaser effect, and unfortunately I've discovered a form of P that I haven't figured out how to block yet. I've got to get on that, otherwise I fear it'll be a problem.

 

@Rocky11234
How are you feeling now after a couple of days since your last post?
Do whatever you can to distract yourself from the symptoms. But also, they might be trying to tell you something. Your midbrain May be primitive, but it’s still really smart. Do some journaling.
Wet dreams are good. They are signs that your body is changing for the better. Lean into the changes as assurance that you don’t need to give in to the chaser effect.