I dont know what happened.

Hi! Let me give you an example with me, the just newcomer. For months, without being very motivated in my strong edging addiction period, I've been trying to reduce ejaculations up to once a month, with staying in almost everyday edging. Well, I succeeded only temporarily and partially until there was a complete crash, because the mind did not make a big difference between edging and masturbation with ejaculation. I know the sense of guilt, I know the terrible feeling of falling energy, and so on.
I can not even count my relapses over the years until, thanks to my total crash I've come to a clear awareness and total st srengthening of motivation. And something very important: awareness and motivation should not lead to the mental understanding that PMO is your enemy. No! It's just an element of your psychic that you CAN correct, that you MUST overcome! Do not start wars, do not suffer, but be strong in your intentions and your tasks! Strengthen Your Will!

 

You're well experienced, you know how things work. Though, i already know but thanks for reminding and that's what i tell other people as well 'You never put your guard down'. Thanks for sharing your experience.
I'd recommend don't be so hard on yourself right now. Maybe sleep longer a day or two to relax your mind. Start new. Be alert all the time. Know your surroundings. One day at a time.
Best of luck!