Did I fail?

Okay so I'm on day 17, my first streak.
And for the past two days I was getting extremely desperate.
So I started browsing through dating websites, for some reason I looked in to the most of fucked up genres in dating, I even went as far as considering to go on Craigslist...
Was even about to accept m4m, where they give you a blowjob. Thank dear lord I didn't, because I'm straight.
So then after a while that's today, maybe 20 minutes ago, I was reading through articles on people's sex experiences, and my di** got so hard, it's unbelievable. It was all built up from yesterday too, as I stayed browsing through dating sites yesterday. And keep in mind that I didn't have a single wet dream for 17 days.
So after I looked down, I saw how red my di** was, and decided to grab it, I only grabbed it, and made a single stroke, just to see how it feels. It was fine nothing happened. My hands were extremely cold, and my di** was extremely hot in temperature. So I held it, I was holding it in hopes for it to calm down. And I just felt an uncontrollable sensation, I knew that if let go I will cum, but still with no control I cummed anyway, without even masturbating, only from holding it. But it didn't feel normal at all, my mood didn't change or anything, and it was very different also, it was like a stream of water, and the whole sensation was very weak, not like a normal orgasm at all. BUT THERE WAS SO MUCH OF IT. It got everywhere and made a massive mess, it just ran down, because I was laying down.

Did I fail? Do I start recounting my streak? It still feels normal... But the fucked up ideas left my head slightly that's all, I still feel happy, but I know that if I tell myself that I failed, I won't feel right. When you know that you got a streak it feels awesome.

Replies are very much appreciated. Thank you!

 

Funny thing is, my brain blocks the thought of masturbating, the more desperate I get the less I want to masturbate, because that I know that it puts me out there. Instead of thinking of masturbation I think of finding a partner to have sex with.

 

Well thank you, I started a recount. And I will try to block out the thoughts of reading articles and browsing through dating sites, and instead will think of meeting girls in real life.

 

Thing is I only had clear thoughts when on NoFap and reading all those articles and shit, that's probably the reason. Because when I watched porn, I used to get sick of the same genre and watch something like gay porn, and think that I like it, then wank off to it, and think it's discusting. But I guess it's the articles and Craigslist fault, for making it feel like a perm effect, if you know what I mean.

 

Lol, I'm sorry. I tried my best not to make it graphic at all, by not including what I read and looked at.

 

No is just that on the Craigslist ads, there are never any w4m and all ways m4m which makes me think if I should try it or not.