A Progressive Challenge-A different kind of challenge- all levels

day 24/100 - soft reboot with wife, so setting long goal to complete my CCIE/study exam

 

3/4, feel like I'm back in heaven.

 

Goal: reach 40 days of no PMO.
Why:

• more energy to focus on my life
• spirituality, meditation
• no PMO helps me deal with anxiety and depression
• I want to get a stronger sense of purpose in life

Today: day 33
One week left.

 

Day 13! I can't believe it.
I had this dream yesterday night that I met with this girl and we started to talk.
It was a short dream. Really, a matter of seconds.
So I don't really remember where exactly it took place or what did we talk about
but I do remember that she was amazing. Like, seriously, the sweetest girl I've seen so far and she was also very beautiful.
I remember that she was thin and she had a dark brown hair.
I felt like I was in heaven for a moment, on the top of the world
like nothing can't stop me.

Sorry for my bad grammar, I just woke up and I had to share it with you guys

 

Second day of seven completed.

 

Day 2 of 10

 

I relapsed again. Yesterday was the only day during this week when I did not masturbate. Hopefully I wont fap tomorrow. Day 0 of 10

 

Day 34/40.

 

Day 8 today. I am on a weekend men’s retreat this weekend, and we just had a talk about acedia, better known as sloth. Basically it is sadness about spiritual good, and disgust with activity. Sadness because we have to give up our comforts, and impulses to grow in spirituality, and disgust with doing anything meaningful because this would also mean we have to step out of our comfort zone. In the talk the speaker said that this can often manifest in porn, and masturbation, because those are two of the most impulsive and comfortable things for us to do.

 

I am in

 

@theBornAgain set goal and have fun

 

It's day 7/14! Yeah, it's my first whole week after a phase of relapsing.

 

1/7

Been a pretty good day. Lots of socialising, which helps a lot with distracting yourself from PMO. Despite this I'm feeling a bit down, melancholy at the moment. I don't mind it, I've always had periods of a few days when I feel like that.

Today was the first day that I tried to reduce my phone usage. I'm gonna try to do that for the coming 2 weeks at least.

 

Day 31/33..

 

6/8 and had bad day mentally. Feeling of loneliness and not wanting to be here. Strange how powerful the mind is. No PMO or relapse which is good. But need to fix my mind. Just feels so fractured.

 

after setting up big goal, one day is long... perhaps, I should concentrate on other things than this 100 days goal..

25/100, 1/4th done I will check in after 25 days on half century. set reminder for 4th March.

happy no_fap guys, cheers