Finding Hope

I have been in therapy for almost 2 years and have seen porn abuse as a secondary issue or a distraction that gets in the way of my focus on my work and family. I've learned a lot in therapy that has helped me be a better person, but...porn continues to eat up hours each week. Sometimes hours a day. My therapist finally said to find a porn addiction support community. Right now my head agrees that I am an addict, but my desire for freedom is not there. I have tried to live a double life view porn and escape then enter the world and connect. I know I can't do both and the porn escape is stealing my soul. Even as I write this I am tearing up but forget how to be aware of what is really important.
Today I begin to believe that hope and freedom from PM is possible. I hope to feel the desire for that freedom as well.

 

thanks for the likes. Already feeling more than I have in awhile.