Serious about it

Hello,

male, 29, from somewhere in Europe. I just registered. I discovered YBOP some times ago and I tried to nofap for a while. I lasted for two weeks, then relapsed, then a week, then relapsed, etc. I just relapsed one hour ago, and I decided that it's better to join a community.

I've a GF, so I don't even want to go "hard-mode", and I must say that luckily I never had big problems in bed with her, so I'm not doing this for erection problems or things like that. I'm not even against porn in general, but I just found out that porn has take over my life. I feel I've no control over my life, because this nofap thing started as a small challenge for me, and I discovered I was not able to control myself, and this is terrible, I really feel like an addict from a movie.

I joined the community because I want to speak about it, read about it and have support from people like me (and even admire them).

I got an account and a counter, I think I need that. I want to join the community and forget about porn. I don't want to fall for it ever again (or, if I do, I want it to be shared with my lover, not alone).

Sorry if I wrote too much...
And thanks for this community. I admire you all.

 

Sometimes it's difficult to get a grasp, because I work on computer all day and porn is just a click away... Content filtering, blocked websites, nothing really works.
Let's see how it goes now that I join the community I think that will make the difference