What do I do? Crush advice.

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Day 46: 2/24/18

I know I’m gonna read all of these when I’m done with nofap and I’ll be cringing at how weird I was. All I really thought about today was if I like my crush still or my friend (girl too. Don’t worry). Basically I’ve liked my crush for ages but I don’t think she’s really interested in being in a relationship. Her best friend said she doesn’t think she likes anyone. And my friend and I are pretty close. She’s really awesome and frankly probably has a better personality than my crush tbh but Id feel weird if I liked her because we talk about crushes all the time and she knows I like my crush. Basically here’s some things. Some kid younger than me that’s friends with my brother likes my friend and she knows. He gave her some expensive jewelry box for Valentine’s Day and she thanked him. I remember she said she didn’t like him but said she was starting to? Not sure but then I would hope she wouldn’t like him. Also I’m going to high school with her next year and I was wondering if it’s weird to date as a freshman? The kids at the high school do make fun of people I think but it’s not a huge problem. Although my parents are extremely protective and really different than me. Theyve always said stuff like they wouldn’t want me to date until I’m 17? Weird. Also my friends would probably think i was weird if i told her i liked her. She’s super friendly with me all the time like Thursday she was like “hey can I feel your hair? It’s so soft. Good luck at basketball” and I asked her how she keeps her hair so blonde and she said she puts lemon juice and sits in the sun and I said she should do that for me some time and she agreed. (I have blonde hair too) That’s kind of our friendship. I’ve never really hung out with her alone. Just some times casually at parties and a lot at school. I just want to know what you all think I should do? Graduation is coming up and we have a lot of parties and things. Maybe i could find myself alone with her at some point and tell her i like her. Not sure. Thank you all. Good luck at nofap.

 

Thanks! I’d be great if you could explain what you mean. I’m mostly ok with my personality, my friends usually refer to me as the funny one and kind of rebellious? I’m ok with my looks, mostly just that I might have rosecea (red cheeks) and it annoys me when people ask like “Have you been running” or something. I’m completely confident enough to tell someone I like them just i don’t know how and I’m nervous what would happen.

Thanks about the freshman info. That does make sense.
Yeah i really appreciate my parents and understand more now what they mean.
Why haven’t I asked her to coffee or something? Well mostly because don’t have a car and we live a decent distance away from her. If I did i probably would if she wasn’t busy which she usually is.
If I told her i liked her? I’m not sure what would happen. She would be nice about it either way but I don’t know if she would understand and be open to the idea of going out or something or she only considers us friends and would want to keep that. What would I do otherwise besides telling her? I’ve already thought about not trying to grow closer to my crush (my best friend likes her too and we kind of silently compete to talk to her more.) and focus more on hanging out with the other girl.

 

I’m not allowing you to decide for me, i just want advice on how I should approach this situation