Every journey begins with the first step ...

... and I guess the first step is admitting I have a problem.

I'm not so sure how honest I should be in these posts, but I guess the more I own up to, the more I can hope to change. Looking at my screen name, friskyfella50, I realise that perhaps lonelyfella50 might have been a better choice - as an older gay man it has become really apparent that my addiction to PMO has replaced the lack of any intimacy I have in my life, or maybe more to the point, my addiction has resulted in this.

I've never been too happy about the way I objectify men as sex objects, it's actually a really horrible way to treat anyone. I really hope it's something I can change.

So this is Day 1 of the rest of my life. I'm not sure what the next few weeks are going to be like, but I am truly inspired by reading all the posts on this site and other peoples struggles. I'm rooting for each and every one of you - keep strong, and in the words of Arnold Schwarzenegger...

'Strength does not come from winning. Your struggles develop your strengths. When you go through hardships and decide not to surrender, that is strength.'

 

thanks for that buddy, will check it out )

 

Day 2 of my new life. Am beginning to realise just how easily porn infiltrates our lives on a daily basis - it's not just hard-core porn on websites, it's the soft-core stuff you see on TV, in magazines, on posters, they can all so easily trigger you into your old habits. Not only that but I'm beginning to see that it's not necessarily about being horny that makes you want to fap, it's about a quick fix, a hit. It isn't really your body telling you to have sex, its your brain craving that rush that leads to PMO. F**k I really am an addict!

 

hey hillcountry, thanks for sharing that - temptation is such a bugger aint it! there is a quote a friend mentioned to me recently that is really helping...

If you always do what you've always done, you'll always get what you've always got

For me, its not just the fix, but the kind of person it has turned me into. I don't want to be that person anymore. And that means I have to change. I hope it helps buddy - keep strong that know that everyone on here is behind you.