3 Years Clean

I do have sex- I think this is one of the main reasons to come clean is so sex is healthy again.

 

Wow, what an amazing community this is. This is really something special guys. Please use me as a resource if any of you need it.

 

Thanks for the question mate. I have no problem answering these questions honestly and openly. I have cravings almost every day. That has never gone away for me. What is abundantly clear is the consequences for indulging in pornography. These FAR outweighs the 10 seconds of pleasure followed by weeks of torture. The hardest time was my relapse 3 years ago. I wanted to see if I could PMO "in healthy way now that I had a year of recovery" and that was downright false. I could barely function and I struggled in every area of my life for weeks after that. I hated myself and honestly contemplated ending it. I was miserable. But I turned that feeling around into fuel to motivate my recovery. I turned that misery into Drive to get better so I never had to feel like that again. I have had 1 major failed attempt (full blown PMO relapse 3 years ago) and many smaller setbacks. The longest streak before this was roughly a year.

I will agree with most motivational speakers ( I do not consider myself one. I just watch a lot of motivational videos) that there is no secret. If there was it would be this: Stop. I am not going to give anyone on here anything that will "make you recover from pornography in 5 easy steps". What it really boils down to is your desire to so whatever it takes to get better. Are you willing to suffer? Are you willing to push yourself? Are you actually wanting to get better or are you bullshitting yourself? Are you willing to work for it? Are you willing to change? For a lot of us on here the answer to most of this is NO. We need to dig inside deep and start being honest with ourselves. That is step 1.