[14-CHALLENGE] THE FOURTEEN DAYS CHALLENGE !

11/14

 

I am having a difficult time passing this 14-day challenge. I'm going back to the 7 day challenge to complete it again. Maybe that might help me a bit.

 

Day 3/14! I have a good feeling this time

 

Day 5/14 done.
Boy was it hard, the urges were so strong. It took mutiple things to calm my nerves but I made it

 

2 / 14

 

I've completed the 7-days-challenge, so i'm in this Challenge. Day 0/14. Good luck!

 

Day 7/14; getting really tough and almost slipped up. Had erections before bed and during night and this morning. Very tempting to want to take care of. I have made to 7 before, so want to start setting new records for myself.
Will have O tonight with wife, but no P and no M is my challenge and will try to make this my only O during the 14 days. Often I slip up hours or day after sex, so will work hard to resist any P or M as work through day 8.

 

I have a question: if i have sex, should i reset my days?

 

Day 11

 

I relapsed yesterday because I couldn't sleep. In general, yesterday was a bad day, I was nervous all day and pretty tired. I looked at some pictures on Instagram and that triggered me.
I stay positive! Let's go ahead.

 

Day 6

 

Completed the 7 day challenge last week, tried the 90 but man I relapsed after just 4 days. So I think I'll try this one instead first . Day 0!

 

Day 11. I really feel like I got this problem beat, urges have been really controllable lately

 

day 4!

 

day 5. getting better!

 

Day 5

 

Day 2/14

 

day 11 no urges.
day 12: kind of felt like turning to porn but dint want to lose my progress.

 

2/14

 

Day 5 and 6

Still going strong. I have had real emotional issues. I am burnt out, and I don't know where to turn. I feel a bit lost if im being honest, and how thats manifested itself is through watching videos and gaming. I am not spending the time meditating with God that I know really is what I want to do and what will let me get over this. No PMO though. But I have ben short with my housemates. I am bwcoming more assertive now I've been off PMO for so long, but I am not using it in the right way as I am now beucase I'd not stable.

I am searching for something to replace it. I'm struggaling with having to find a different coping mechanism for my problems - I have to deal with them rather then getting affirmation from some thing on a screen. I am attention seeking, and I know it, at the moment. But I am also know that it will improve. I have to focus on the little things and put better things in place.

I am also on a new medication that I will be on for the rest of my life. I should start today, but couldn't bring myself to do it. My life is changing and I sjut want to ignor it. But I have to come to terms with it. Tommorow at 7pm I will take it and then daily from then on. I have to. I'm comming up with any excuse I can tonight not to take it, but I'm being silly. I know it's really just beucause I ahve not come to terms with it yet. It will be harmless to me and only improve my life. I need to take it!