New, again

So, I was here (some time ago) in November, but I had quit this forum for some time when I relapsed and struggled again with both PMO and cam model addiction. Since late December, I have stopped my cam model addiction through sheer willpower. Sheer willpower isn't working out so well against the pure physical addiction of PMO though. I keep thinking of how it would be nice to talk to someone who understands, then I remembered this forum, and now I am back again. Now that I beat both my marijuana and cam model addiction, I think I can get the willpower with support to actually keep off and get to a full reboot. The tracker is just when I had quit ... should update momentarily.

 

Thanks for the welcome. Journals don't really do much for me honestly, same reason I didn't like the 12 step meetings, because when you shared you were expected not to get responses. Direct conversation is where it's at for me.

 

I'm a male, not a female who has worked as a model. But generally yes, I would say few of them enjoy their work and it is a toxic kind of service for all involved. The drive for almost all of it is men wanting to be desired, men wanting control over their sexual feelings and wanting a positive outcome instead of nothing or the lack of connection from p. I've also met many women who also used the internet, sexual desire, in attempts for connection as well. It's a difficult situation for everyone.

Thanks for the welcomes everyone.