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a bye bye letter to porn

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by jobbyj, Mar 14, 2018.

  1. so, on the pornfree radio podcast i learnt of writing a letter to porn....now i am unsure how to do it, but i gave it a go.....thought i would share....


    To Porn,

    I was used and manipulated by my own family, treated badly and bullied in many ways. You were there to soak up those confusing feelings as a child who didn’t know what to do - a scared child. You provided some balancing and some escape when I needed it from a very chaotic time.

    However, you were not meant to stay, but you have stayed for 20 years now, and I think its time we part ways, as you are now the problem. You have robbed me of confidence, growth, opportunity in many ways, and given me more shame. I know it wasn’t your fault, but as you provided me shelter then, I tell you now, its time for you to go.

    I thank you for giving me some cover, which I still don’t fully understand, but for me to live more, I don’t need you anymore.
     
  2. g2stop

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    Dear porn,

    You started off as a curiosity when I was very young. You were with me throughout my growing up. You were always there to provide me with some entertainment or distraction. I didn’t know it at the time, but you contributed to my awkwardness with girls and difficulties in getting into real relationships.

    You became the cause of my social anxiety and the cure. I would go out to try and meet women like the ones I saw in porn. When the real world disappointed me I would turn back to you. Leading to a more and more isolated life.

    You became my mistress and I enjoyed the power you had over me. I enjoyed being able to give up all control and responsibility and let you take over my mind.

    I now realise that I want my mind back. You do not care for me as much as I cared for you. You are a destructive force in my life and I can see that now. I wish I had known sooner and wish I had never been exposed to you. I feel I am now strong enough to let you go forever.

    I no longer need you to comfort me, to make me feel like a stud, to give me what I cannot get elsewhere. I can now meet all my needs through my ability to make real life connections.

    I know you can be sick and twisted and your creators are always looking to make more shocking content. I do not want to see any more content. I want to experience real life pleasures.

    I no longer want to watch other people and want to live my own life. Thank you for the lessons you have taught me about myself. I am now strong enough to let you go for good and will do so with the help of my brothers and sisters on nofap.
     
  3. really like your letter, think the exercise is quite useful

    for me when i wrote it, i thought it might be an angry letter but like yours it was more reflective and balanced, which initially confused me, but it makes sense in a recovery journey

    good luck and thanks for sharing
     
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  4. Uncultivated

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    Amen, congrats brother!!
     
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  5. Nice and true letter.....I am with you because our enemy is same
     
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  6. TheGoldenEra

    TheGoldenEra Distinguished Fapstronaut

    I'm more of a poem kinda guy,but ill try sticking with the theme of a letter...here it goes.

    Dear Porn,
    You came to me at the ripe age of eleven,
    Introduced by some friends before I even reached year (grade) seven.
    Disgusted with what I saw at first,
    But you became something I quenched for to cure my thirst.
    Desensitised by your cartoon counterpart,
    Look at what you made me start!
    When sad and lonely, by you I was comforted,
    But indeed it was you who made me so distorted.
    Years and years past,
    Yet the days never really amassed.
    Finally, I tried everything I could possibly do,
    Now It's been 237 days without you.
    And now it's time for me to be a legend


    This is the start of
    The Golden Era
    ;)
     
  7. Great and true direct from heart ....you can do this....we will do this....I like your poetry style post :)
     
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  8. TheGoldenEra

    TheGoldenEra Distinguished Fapstronaut

    Thanks Bro, glad you enjoyed it.
    I'm gonna write one for when I beat MO too! Maybe you should write one too, it was kinda therapeutic for me ngl
     
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  9. Dear porn

    You started off as a view to watch then you ruined my experience and took my innocents in my teenager life,Now as a adult I can see why my mom was warn about. I’m mad?no that’s me being mad myself for waste my time in video instead I could done something more produced in my life,now I am suffer from pstd to social anxiety of what I assumed what’s social acceptable but now I been made fun of it in high school experience and now paid the price, I would never do the same mistaken over.

    Fuck you porn
     
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  10. really like your poem, and well done on your journey!!
     
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  11. TheGoldenEra

    TheGoldenEra Distinguished Fapstronaut

    Aww thanks mate:D:D
    All the best to yourself as well. Stay focused and keep your eyes on the goal.
     
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  12. Dear porn,

    I met you when I was just a child... At first you were shy, but as we grew up together you began to reveal more & more to me. I was blinded by my love for you - nobody else mattered, I had eyes only for you. You were good to me, I could always rely on you - if I was having a hard day or a headache, I could come to you & you would soothe me... But your love become painful. I began to see the real you, and whilst I enjoyed visiting you, afterwards I would feel guilty.... And because we had spent so much time together I did not want our relationship to end, even though I knew it was the right thing to do... And you always knew all the right ways to keep me coming back. If is difficult for me to do this, because you have been a part of my life for so long, but I must say goodbye & we must go our separate ways. Furthermore, now that I have become un-blinded from my love for you, I have seen what you were doing to me. I thought you loved me back, but really you were just trying to keep me locked away - you were trying to destroy all my friendships, prevent my success in life & take away all my fun. You are obsessive, a control-freak and our relationship has become toxic. You tricked me porn, and I fell for it. So now this is the final goodbye - I am moving onto better things.
     
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  13. Shapirous

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    Dear porn,

    I don't need you anymore and go fuck yourself.
     
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  14. g2stop

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    Dear porn,

    The more time I spend with nofap the more my memories of you are surfacing from the past. I started at 9 or 10 with a fascination with lingerie models in women’s clothing catalogues, then I used to call premium phone lines for a few seconds of a sexy voice at the other end telling me what to do. The first time I started masturbating to magazines and soft porn I remember I would tell myself this is the last time this happens as I was ashamed. Then the shame made you more exciting and you were my secret friend that no one else knew about. You kept all my secrets and I kept yours. You made me feel guilty and shameful but that made it more exciting. You escalated quickly to more and more shameful things and I was happy to have a secret life that no one else knew about. So if no one knew me fully, then they could not hurt me.

    I know now that you damaged my way of thinking and shaped my view of the world in a twisted way. I can now see that the real me is different to that. Sometimes I am afraid that the person who I thought I was will truly disappear when I say goodbye to you. But day by day I am getting stronger and stronger to say goodbye for good. I am almost on day 10 and can feel a shift in myself.

    So goodbye my old friend, I will not mourn your leaving
     
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  15. powerful
    like it
     
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  16. well done , and good luck on day 10 and beyond
     
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  17. wonder if others will write letters
     
  18. Ridley

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    Dear Porn,

    Thank you. You have given me so much. I was discovering my sexuality and some of the odd, kinky stuff I was into when I was a teenager, and you were there to provide examples of things I liked and didn't like. You helped me develop a sexual identity that is uniquely mine. You were there as a supporting friend, someone who would make me feel good no matter what. Whether it was a fight with my parents, a bad breakup from a long-lasting relationship, losing a job, or feeling rejection from people I thought were my friends, you were there to make me feel good. You would never say 'no' to me, you were always willing to entertain me, and always capable of doing it, too. If I leave you for days, weeks, or even a month, as I have done many times before, severing our relationship and leaving you in the dark, you'll still be there when I come back, and you'll provide the same good feeling you always had before.

    The feeling you gave me was always good, so thanks for that. However, even though it was a good feeling, it was always a short lived one. I would often go to bed immediately after spending time with you, not caring about what you were doing afterwards because I knew you didn't care about whether or not I cared. The feeling you gave me, though good, was nothing compared to the feeling of learning a new piece of music, or solving a really difficult programming puzzle, or beating one of my friends at chess, or laughing with my family over Christmas dinner, or talking to my girlfriend all night about how crazy and magical the universe is, or playing some of my favorite video games, or starting a new job, or climbing to the top of a mountain. All of those are long lasting feelings, and they're all real and abundant in our world. After a while, I started to realize that every moment I spent with you was a moment I could have spent doing one of those other things. So, in a way, I was trading the good feeling you were giving me for the real life experiences I could have been having.

    I'm not mad at you, Porn. You did the best you could. I can't deny that I enjoyed my experiences with you. I just want to move on to bigger and better things. There's so much more that I'm capable of, and I want to discover what that means. I don't think I'll be able to reach my full potential if I keep spending time with you. I know you won't be mad at me for leaving, and I know you don't take this personally at all, so I don't feel any guilt about leaving. I think this is the best decision for me, and I feel like I've learned something about myself from my experiences with you. This is a tough goodbye, and I sincerely hope it's our last one, but it was nice to know you. Smell ya later!
     
  19. really like your last para
    good luck
     
  20. glad others joined in
    think it helped writing this
     

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