Here we go...

Hi everyone,

My name is John and I'm from the Massachusetts, USA. I joined NoFap for a lot of reasons, first and foremost being to stop PMO'ing altogether. I am sick and tired of losing self control and wasting all this time on PMO. I want to be better than that. I want to be in control of myself again. I wait for my roommate to leave my apartment, and then I go at it. I am an Orthodox Christian, and I'm so ashamed when I confess it to my priest every time, with little progress to show for it. It's time to make a real effort this time.

I had done it before really to just satisfy my urges more than anything. I have been fighting it to no avail; it was just recently that I realized that I haven't been thinking about things the right way. I had the mindset that this was some insurmountable urge that I needed to fulfill and I had started to lose heart. Then it just hit me that I can beat this, and this is just a stupid addiction that I can beat. When I get bored I get the urges, and strangely enough when I miss a meal or go hungry its a big problem as well... I don't know why or if its a secondary cause to a larger issue. I guess I will find out.

I need a hard reboot, and then I don't want to look back. My goal is a full year of hardmode PMO abstinence, which will hopefully reboot me enough so that I'm set.

I have a few things that I plan to use to help me to get off the computer and not bored (one of my issues). First, I have my schoolwork: I'm an engineering college student (however I always found the time to PMO in the past...). I've been rather bad with working out lately, so I'm going to start that up again. I like to run, and I have taken a gym class on rowing that I really enjoyed as well. I also like to write, so I will use that to help me, and I also want to learn the harmonica. I hope that all this stuff together will help me overcome it... or at least keep my occupied. Video games too, but I want to stay off the computer (I'm big into pc gaming).

I'm technologically inclined which has hurt me in the past. For instance I use firefox, and set up this awesome extension called Leechblocker on it. That helped, but then I installed chrome and couldn't find a suitable working alternative for that so I failed. I have set up my own stuff on windows and linux to try to fight it, but I just find workarounds and such. I just install K9 per NoFap's suggestion. I have written the 15 character password of random numbers and letters on a sheet of paper, and I will ask my roommate to go hide it in one of my books on my bookshelf located in another room. Hopefully that will enable me to get control of myself. Hopefully K9 is good enough.

I think it would be nice to have an accountability partner. I guess I'll post about it in the relevant topic. I will be posting in the ages 20-24 journal section as well.

Here's to a new beginning. I don't need the pleasure, I don't need the porn, I need a reboot.

 

Also to clarify, no edging or watching porn will count either. Nothing.

 

Thanks for all the support guys!