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Was it a relapse, loss of soberity or...?

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Fighting Axeman, Mar 22, 2018.

  1. Fighting Axeman

    Fighting Axeman Fapstronaut

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    I was watching a video and it showed a scene that triggered me. I wanted more so in that same website I typed in a searched for similar videos that would cause me to be simulated. I watched about 20 mins of different videos that didn’t show exposed body parts but was revealing. It was causing me to go down the same path to PMOing but I heard my voice saying stop don’t throw away what you have learned. I walked away from it and didn’t do anything else. No porn sites were involved or M. I was on a work computer in the afternoon when I searched and watched. Here is my soberity lines for relapse.
    - I will stay away from porn stores
    - I will not view any porn sites
    - I will not see naked pictures of women
    - I will not use computers without covenant eyes install
    - I will not be on the internet after 10pm

    I would like some feedback on what this would be called.
     
  2. I don't think it's a relapse because you were able to stop yourself from following through, but I'd call this 'mental edging'. You purposely sought out p-subs for the dopamine hit regardless of your goals. It's a really slippery slope you're on if you don't stop doing that, it's going to make it that much more difficult the next time your urges hit if you get into a pattern of thinking its ok as long as you don't actually PMO.
     
  3. Fighting Axeman

    Fighting Axeman Fapstronaut

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    I don’t think it’s okay what I did. I want to get to the point where I don’t even let myself get where I did.
     
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  4. If you don't like it, reset your counter and let that be a wake-up call for yourself.
     

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