[30-CHALLENGE] THE THIRTY DAYS CHALLENGE !

Day 22, 23 & 24/30 Done
Been a bit busy with little to no spare time to update this. Still going well.

 

Day 9.
Urges, urges and urges. I know, it's normal and I do try to distract myself from it, but it's still hard. Only after getting the smallest thought into my head I instantly forget everything but PMO.
I'll do my best to stay strong.

 

Day 13/30

 

Day 8: Somehow I made it this far. I'm not sure why, but I haven't felt the pull toward PMO this past week. Maybe it's because of the stress, or the fact that I've been too busy to really think, but I'll take it as a blessing for now. I pray that I will have the strength to overcome the imminent struggles, but for now I'm just going to roll with it. Honestly had an amazing week without all of it on my mind even through the stress.

 

Day 6

 

26 / 30

 

Day 4/30

 

I relapsed again today, but a lot of positive things happened at the same time. It’s at least progress that I know that I can refrain from porn for at least 1 week at a time.

 

Damn I relapsed and binged again - back to day 0. This stuff is killing me man, I can't let this happen again.

 

Day 8

 

Day 23.

 

Day 26

 

Day8: Managed to get though the Weekend without molesting myself! Yay me! This weekend is gonna be super busy with year end closing and family visiting, so its good news for my NO-PMO diet. if i get through this weekend i know ill get the will power to get through the next 2 after that as well! Just have to keep at it.

 

Its Ok buddy! As long as you don't give up the fight. Keep at it!

 

Yea i know what you mean! I don't know how true this statement might be, but i feel these thoughts and urges are like a withdrawal symptoms your brain if going through because it has not gone through such a "dry patch" from PMO in a loooong time. And recognizing these urges as those symptoms helps to understand and get over the urges. (just like smoking or alcoholic or any other addiction)

I've myself screwed up this 30 Day challenge 3 times. But what i have found is that its ok to have these thoughts as long as you don't dwell on them. And the best way to do that is to either be so busy that you don't have time to think about it, and once you realise you are having these urges etc, immediately come onto this site and start going through the forums. Esp reading the relapse and rebooting section helps to put things back into perspective very fast. All the best on your journey brother. Keep at it!

 

Day 7 check in

 

15/30

 

Day 20 since I have signed for this challenge.
And 38 since no PM.

And I already see the results. For the first time in a long period while having sex with my wife I saw how great woman she is, because I didn't have to think at any preferred porn actress or anything else at all. I managed to be there entirely with my mind. I saw her and I did not make any comparison, because there is nothing to compare with. My wife is the mother of my children, the woman who cooks, iron and clean, the woman who loves me and doesn't compare me with a 25 yo boy who stays half a day, everyday in a gym and is a professional in porn movies. So, who I am to think at a professional girl, to compare my wife with?
Believe me, it is a result and it is not a little thing.
I am writing this to you, for you, all of you, because I want you to know that in just only few days (38, there are not so many) you can start to see the difference. It doesn't matter where or in what the difference is, it matters that is a good difference.
More than this, it is the first time when, being so connected to what happen with me, I can see the changes. Only by being more aware of me, of what I want in this life, or what I have become and lost because of porn and masturbation. I managed to see that I can be much better, I can change into a different and better me.
So, before thinking only once at relapsing, think more and more at what you can be.
Off course, my struggle is not over. In know that I am only at the beginning of my path. But I will try permanently to be aware of the fact that the best life is after and without porn.
Good luck.

 

Day 27. Sadness might prevent me from urges but I'm vigilante. I really need to inside my integrity, to be loyal to my principles and beliefs, because that way I can love myself