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Hi.
It started since the age of 12. Girls became hot and I needed a way to deal with the whole thing. Porn came 2 years after. I never really stopped except for a period of 4 months when I had a gf. Strange how that came to be because I didn't even really sleep with my then gf. Today I'm 20 and Things obviously have changed. What was once fun has turned to something damaging. Loneliness and anxiety about future drove it off the cliff. I never cared about rushing to get laid, I definitely wanted to of course but I wasn't fixated to lose my virginity at 15. there were females around me and I would catch some eyes while not even trying. Things were good But since high school started, holy shit it got so difficult. It feels like a dark void in my heart and the rest of my body is just bathing in Magma. I started craving contact and sexual bonding and relationship. It really messed me up. So in my current situation I feel like shit entering my 20s as a virgin and I feel so fucking lonely. I'm trying to do something about it but so far no results. I'm quitting PMO in hope that it might change something in my life even though I don't believe it will. I'm a few days in and I'm experiencing many of the symptoms. I tell myself "Just do it and release the stress. You are single and lonely and being pent up like this makes things worse. You can worry about quitting when you get with somebody." The only reason I don't do it is because it makes me physically weak and I do sports so...yeah. Anyways hope there is some help in here.