Subconsciously beginning the cycle

So lately for about a month ive been subconsciously beginning to watch psubs and more explicit stuff then stopped. i relapsed last monday aand again today but have viewed a lot of stuff on prior days. this starts to happen at night when im in my eoom with my phone and im tired and bored. And the times i relapsed were pure boredom and feelings of depression. I know what i need to do im not asking for help but thenonly thing i do need help with is

how do i stop the subconscious cycle of STARTING the viewing? Ive had no urges to WANT to watch porn in fact ive been disgusted by it already but somehow i find myself just searching and wathing and fter q while i start to get aroused. its something my porn brain knows it can go to when i as a whole am feeling tired depressed bored af or similar feelings. i almost go into autopilot with no want to PMO. i feel stupid these last two times cuz im like “i didnt even want to do it” yet i did

please comment i youve felt this way and how i could stop doing this. I truly believe i can handle my urges and my thoughts well, despite them being strong sometimes but its just that autopilot mode when im not doing anything.

 

Im really glad you mention that i need to do the same i appreciate it