I might commit suicide...

PMO addiction caused symptoms were bad.
But flat line symptoms are hard. I had cried four times so far, loneliness. Sometimes angry but mostly lonely

 

Hey man ! I’m Going through this too. It’s terrible bro. You aren’t alone! I’m on a streak and I get porn ptsd and flashbacks and my OCD is telling me to relapse but it gets better over time man. Yea PMO turns us into a person we are not and it wraps our sexual taste and gives us sexual dysfunction so all that mixed together including the reboot and flatline makes us feel like this but man just relax and remember all bad things come to end so you will get through this ! I promise !

 

May god bless us all. being suicidal is a horrible emotion. it's very tiring and to deal with it alone is worse. i hope you get better. take care

 

I was also thinking about suicide numerous times. When I got out of it, I understood that it was just my brain trying to scare me into never giving up porn.
I still have PIED, I am 2 months into this and everything is OK. I don’t care about my penis working, I am just living my life without any sex. Give yourself a break, the time will come and you will heal.

 

I have a lot of the same feelings. I feel stuck in fear and emptiness, almost paralyzed.

If you wanted to pair as support partners for each other, please let me know

odjoeo

 

Hey @Ouch I want you to relax okay just dont worry okay whatever is troubling you just focus on your breathing and breath nice and slow at a normal pace let everything go okay, things get better that light near the end of the tunnel will get there as long as your determined so is it really worth offing yourself? I mean half the worlds population is suicidal and about a quarter of them kill themselves everyday! I mean what difference does that make? Huh? What has that changed? It hasnt made you or the world around you any different. Sure you might turn some heads for a lil second and might get some people crying like your family. Your family. But it has done anything. At all. So stay alive! Make yourself different be that change love yourself develop some hobbies meet people you haven’t met before! The world is like a video game thousands of characters to play with and dozens of different levels that we have to get through we also have this wide space to explore and figure out, so dont quit explore! Find a purpose in living dont end it short.

 

Everything is just a choice. For all you know you will never get there. Because there is no there your life is just a story about you... what happened in it happened whats gonna happen, is gonna happen you can write your story or burn the pencil and rip the pages from it.

 

“When a train goes through a tunnel and it gets dark, you dont throw away your ticket and jump off. You sit still and trust the engineer” - Corrie Ten Boome a Holocaust survivor

 

Hey @Ouch I'm going to tell you about just six months ago I don't have much people but the ones there we do have good times regardless. My happy place is my music, if there's something that picks me up no matter what I'm going through it'd be there helping me carry on. So back then just last year I'd feel like dying a lot of times I thought of just throwing myself under the bus, I thought about what mom would go through and mostly my sister. Look closely this addiction is the one driving you there those aren't your thoughts trust me. Once you start moving in the right direction everything will start falling into place. Well here's one thing which changed my thoughts. I saw a lady I wanted to be with but I was way too negative to even walk and say hi, I looked to the future and saw myself a bitter lonely old man who gets mad at every living soul. All that had to change, and I started eradicating all the negatives in my life, trust me it wasn't easy for me to get to this current streak, I recently added up the years and they amounted to four years of me trying to quit. I wanted to live life to the fullest and so now here's what's happening, I left porn for good as that was part of the negatives and no started on my journey. Nowadays I'm confident but the negative thoughts still do creep up, they ain't a problem cause I'm looking forward to a better future. Never Doubt the process as you'll come out the strongest person. You removing yourself is robbing you of a future you don't know. It'll all get better. And you'll come out wiser.

 

Doesn't seem like the OP is coming back.

PMO is a way to escape from life's pain, problems, and negative experiences.

Things like PMO conditions you to become weaker and escape more and more over time.

Until one day you can't even face minor problems of reality and the only way to escape is to make everything stop.

Life is filled with positive and negative.

I hope you all take this thread and your journey a lot more seriously now.

 

Rip I never knew the guy but if pmo took him than I hope he will find light one day ☝️ pray guys pray

 

This.

I used to be really depressed (porn induced) and even thought about ending it. It was the worst thing I've ever experienced. I wouldn't wish it on anyone. As hard as it was I stuck with it. I hope that anyone who's struggling with suicide reads this thread and talks to someone.

 

Addiction isolates us. It's so easy to think and feel like no one knows what we are going through, no one understands, and no one cares. That's the addiction speaking lies.
This forum is a good place to talk to others who do understand.
PLease reach out and talk to someone. Don't isolate yourself.

 

guys...does anyone aware of anyway to reach the guy? can the admins do anything?

 

Why he is not replying....
I read all the post but there is not a single reply of him
This is making me anxious