Someone please help me(OCD)

Maybe this is completely useless advice, but you have mirrors (I hope). You should always KNOW where everyone (and everything) is around your vehicle at all times. Check as you drive pass. If there's no-one waving their hands or screaming, then you haven't hit them. It's good to check, that's just safe driving. But you should be able to know whether you've hit someone before driving on. Although, perhaps I've completely miss understood the problem.

Mate, ISPs can't see what you're doing - notice that pornhub and google are both "https". The "s" in https means "secure" - the content is encrypted (that means the ISPs can see you visited pornhub and google, but have not idea what you saw or what you searched for). Also, it's up to pornhub to filter content like that, not the visitor. Otherwise Google would be in sooo much trouble for all the illegal software websites its indexed.

EDIT: I just realised that this sounds like I'm encouraging you too look at that stuff; I'm not. I'm just saying that the government isn't going to hunt you down for it. Yeah, don't look at that stuff.

I feel you man. I've had some dreams and thoughts before and, yeah, they are seriously screwed up. But I remember that they are only thoughts (as evil as they are) and have no effect on anyone but yourself. I'm a Christian myself, so I'm just glad that Jesus has paid for all my (and your) sins, regardless of how messed up or persistent they may be (evil thoughts are sinful). If you have come to Jesus, your sins have been forgiven, and the guilt you have is from Satin - beware of it. That said, its not thoughts you want to entertain. Keep up with nofap, and such thoughts should fade (they did for me). Tear yourself away from the thoughts when they do occur - I know it can be hard, but it is possible.

Basically, all these problems seem to just be another habit that needs to be broken/replaced - don't let them get you down. You will overcome them eventually if you keep trying.

 

Maybe you should seek professional help for your OCD?

 

This seem out of topic but why in porn they show some questionable ads,WHY? It’s seem very creepy.

 

I can definitely relate some of the things you said. I had OCD too but I didn't care what it cost me I wanted to be that way and I had been that way untill the point I couldn't afford it anymore. If I had the chance to practice my rituals again I definitely would but everyone's experience is different. What works for me might not work for you. I don't want to encourage you in OC behavior. It can really ruin your life. Mine was just very subtle but I had times when it got worse when I spent 6 hours in the shower. I think forbidden thoughts are the worst aspect of OCD. Having forbidden thoughts really made me miserable. Other than that being hygiene conscious and having principles rules rituals whatever you name it is something that requires effort and discipline. I think it is a good thing up to a point. Most people are like dogs they do anything. I would much rather have OCD than being a dumbass who thinks and decides with his genitals rather than his brain. So good luck with your OCD and controlling your reptile brain.

 

I found a book called "Brain Lock" really helpful for countering OCD. It's a really good book to help you understand why you have OCD and basically teaches you a form of CBT where you relabel your intrusive thoughts as OCD thoughts. In doing that, it can help you break the cycle between intrusive thoughts and ritual behaviour. It really helped me.

This is an introduction: https://ocduk.org/four-steps

One warning is that it's really, really not easy. You have to relabel hundreds of times at first and you have to be pretty assertive with it. For a long time I felt that I would never overcome it but I persevered and over time found myself relabelling less and less.