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very ashamed of what i did

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by recoome, Apr 2, 2018.

  1. Apr 2, 2018 #1
    recoome

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    I was in this gay hookup place, it happens in crowded trains and i saw this guy. i walked close to him and i pressed my hand to his crotch a few times. the man turned out to be straight and called me fag*** and threatened to beat the shit out of me.

    i know what i did was horrible and i invited his wrath. i just feel so ashamed at what i did.

    i was sexually abused as a child. that was year ago, i am 28 now. i feel so ashamed at what i did. it's eating me alive.


    i was sober for 6 months, but on that day i couldnt stop myself.
     
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  2. Apr 2, 2018 #2
    iRebootMyself

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    No offence, but I would punch you twice in the face if you have done that shit to me.
     
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  3. Apr 2, 2018 #3
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    You gotta get some help bro. You sexually assaulted someone.
     
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  4. Apr 2, 2018 #4
    recoome

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    I went to Psychiatrist. He said the urges are coming from 4 years of childhood sexual abuse. I know it's not an excuse, but it just sucks. Doc gave some meds incase I get urges again.
     
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  5. Apr 2, 2018 #5
    recoome

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    I don't like myself anymore.
     
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  6. Apr 2, 2018 #6
    iRebootMyself

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    Just learn from it, forget about it and move on.
     
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  7. Apr 2, 2018 #7
    SoulOf1Lion

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    ayy we all done horrible things, that doesnt make you a bad person. so cut the hate
     
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  8. Apr 2, 2018 #8
    recoome

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    I feel very Ashamed. I don't want anything anymore. Just want to die.
     
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  9. Apr 2, 2018 #9
    jeremiah960

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    Like all of us, you need to move forward from it. It's crucial that you learn from it. It is your low point ...work towards the high points. Seek help by getting the help you really need.
     
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  10. Apr 2, 2018 #10
    recoome

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    The doc asked about my career n education n was impressed. He said your ruining it because of this.
     
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  11. Apr 2, 2018 #11
    DaBauce97

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    The best forward is to face the issues and work on them. No matter how slow you overcome them or how pain it is. Because you know what will happen if you continue the path of destruction and thats not very good ALTHOUGH it is the easier option of the two. You're not alone in this fight and everyone fucks up at some point in their life so stop feeling sorry about yourself. It was extremely brave of you to seek a psychiatrist so give yourself a break, stop being so hard on yourself when nothing positive comes out of doing so.
     
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  12. Apr 2, 2018 #12
    recoome

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    I'm ashamed of myself at what I did to that guy. Although I'm grateful I didn't scar him for life. He was in his early 30s or something.

    I feel like the tag of sexual assaulter is on me. Like my conscience is broken.
     
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  13. Apr 2, 2018 #13
    u376

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    Guys I want to ask
    Are rapists or sex offenders......pissed from their life
    Are they frustrated....or what
    Please do tell me...
    Because there is a documentary regarding rapists in which most of them were sad and depressed
    Correct me if I am wrong
     
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  14. Apr 2, 2018 #14
    recoome

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    Long back I read an article where a guy wanted to be euthanized. He was a rapist and was being released from prison. He said he wouldn't be able to control his urges and will end up raping a woman again. The court agreed to euthanize him.
     
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  15. Apr 2, 2018 #15
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    Then I think my perception is right
     
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  16. Apr 2, 2018 #16
    recoome

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    To be honest every person has an explanation and a reason. We can put the "blame" on society or parents or peer pressure.
    It'd be better to be neither the victim nor the perpetrator. Staying away from all this mess would be much better.
     
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  17. Apr 2, 2018 #17
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    What is the purpose of your post?
     
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  18. Apr 3, 2018 #18
    lauraS

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    guys please be kind, i dont think you are really helping him. i have read only bad advice here.

    laura x
     
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  19. Apr 3, 2018 #19
    Evolve1973

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    Maybe lighten up on yourself a bit. I dont think the advice of forgetting about it and moving on will help, bit like saying get over depression and smile.

    Firstly by taking responsibility for your actions, that promotes self awareness. You've got that, so thumbs up.
    Second, you've reached out for support, which shows you want to change, another thumbs up
    Thirdly, get a plan in place. One that you will use in times of vulnerability... be that call a support person, or getting yourself involved in some major distractions, as remember ..all thoughts are temporary .

    Take care bro
     
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