Reboot led to massive depression and Body Dismorphic Disorder

Do some research on dopamine deficiency / dopamine deficient depression. During reboot (and beyond) it is crucial that you find other stuff that triggers a natural dopamine release in your brain (such as physical activity, helping others, eating a piece of chocolate every now and then or generally eating more clean and healthy nutritious meals, meeting up with people, etc.). Just by cutting out all the porn you'll end up exactly where you've just been. Heavy depression due to dopamine deficiency. You need to replace this bad habit you're breaking with good habits. Because in order to feel good, you need dopamine. Just not from pmo anymore.

 

I agree with the above poster that it's a good idea to find a healthy way to replace the dopamine that your mind isn't getting from PMO.

But in reality, you're just gonna feel shitty for a little while man. There are things that you can do like exercise, meditation, socializing, eating healthy etc. that can help for sure, but you just have to accept the fact that things are gonna suck for a little while.

Just know that whatever physical or mental symptoms that you go through as a result of withdrawal are temporary and they will pass.

It's really hard, there's no doubt about it. I've never felt worse in my life than withdrawing from PMO. The truth is though, there's no way around it- you just have to push through.

You'll come out stronger on the other side.

 

Ive started gym and I can tell you that spending 10 minutes on a treadmill on a level i can handle, makes me feel happy for half a day! Start to go for a job twice a day lasting 15 minutes at a time.

 

Perfect! Looking at your lesson here, this was a crucial step in your overall recovery and had to happen. Not a mistake, not a failure. Everything goes as planned.

The lesson (as you've already discovered): Staying alone at home is too artificial and reclusive. You could try this in the beginning, in order to get off the wagon for 1-3 days and create positive momentum, but in the long run you can't reboot "in the lab". You just have to take it out into the field and test it there. Btw, the same holds true for spiritual endeavours in my opinion. I never really understood the idea of going into a monastery and becoming a monk. It's far too easy to think you're enlightened in such a place, where everyone is kind and spiritual and meditative and peaceful, where you don't have internet access or many personal belongings, no romantic relationships, family, etc. The true test happens out there in the real world. If you're never confronted with the average unhappy, unkind, hurtful, judging people, you'll never know if you're truly enlightened. Likewise (coming back to NoFap and your quitting the internet altogether), if you're never tempted, you'll never know if you can resist temptation.

Meditation is a very good idea. Also volunteer work where you help others (work in general helps a lot if you have trouble socializing in your spare time). Good luck and keep us posted!