Day 77: Struggling

napionder · Nov 5, 2014

So, up until now, my reboot was challenging, but managable. This past week however my mind seems to be going crazy. I'm constantly thinking about sex. I do my breathing exercises and I use all my other tricks, but it's a constant battle to get these fantasies out of my head.
When I'm on my pc I constantly feel the urge to watch pics of beautiful women (no P). I also have no urge to M or O. It's a weird sensation. It's like my penis is flatlining, but my brain is not. Up until now I have been able to resist, but it's a constant battle.

The positive side to these fantasies is that I'm fantasizing about normal sex with someone that I care about. I wrote in one of my previous updates that I craved for intimacy and a relationship, now that's evolved into another level. So, it's good that I crave 'normal' things, but I don't like my mind being flooded with Lust. I don't like to be a passenger to my own brain.

Fighting on!

ds112358 · Nov 5, 2014

I think you just got out of a flatline, which means your brain is more active and you will have more urges. This is probably overwhelming you. The only solution to this is to focus on your life and goals. This will automatically lead you away from porn.

FYI, pictures of women count as porn as they will activate the same reward circuits in your brain. If you look at them once, your brain will demand more dopamine and the chaser effect will pull you back to porn.

Stay strong, mate!

napionder · Nov 5, 2014

Thanks Ds!

BreakFree · Nov 5, 2014

I'm right there with you Napionder. I'm at day 60 and I'm battling the most intense urge I've had of this entire experience. I'm at home sick for the day. Other posters recommended that I get off the computer and go for a walk. Unfortunately, I've got some symptoms keeping me inside today and I've got schoolwork to be doing on the computer. If you can, get away from the computer. I'm halfway through the day, only 2 more hours until I'm out of the woods and the opportunity doesn't exist anymore.

Don't give in!!!!

tm6997 · Nov 5, 2014

Looks like we're in the same boat. Experiencing the same symptoms and also trying to remedy them with the same things. Stay strong!

napionder · Nov 5, 2014

Good to hear I'm not the only one, although I do not wish this upon anybody.
Anybody else started to work out and run like crazy?

tweeby · Nov 5, 2014

I'm on day 40 and I can't stay in the house at all. Which is so different to how I used to be. I would just spend all my time on the computer watching youtube videos and porn. I've got to keep busy. I've never made it past day 43 so 60+ days is unknown territory.

Go out and gym it. That's good advice right there bro. Good luck and keep up the streak.

I also find myself browsing non nude pics from time to time but stop before I get too excited. If I relapse and have to reset I won't be looking at those types of pics fourth time round. It is still sending spiking signals to the brain.

Just like third time round I let myself engage in deep mental fantasies where I would be fully aroused from purely my imagination. That was a bad move. Staying away from soft porn images (non nude) is something I won't be looking at again.

It's just another way of the braining trying to trick itself into a reward.

tm6997 · Nov 5, 2014

I've started doing a lot of leg lifts using a doorway as a pull-up bar. My abs are going to look amazing after this reboot. lol

napionder · Nov 6, 2014

Yeah, I've been working out a lot too. Have tons of energie and it helps with urges. Or at least it used too. I've been lifting weights, practicing yoga and running like crazy, but that doesn't seem to do it anymore.

Log in

Day 77: Struggling

napionder Fapstronaut

ds112358 Fapstronaut

napionder Fapstronaut

BreakFree Fapstronaut

tm6997 Fapstronaut

napionder Fapstronaut

tweeby Banned

tm6997 Fapstronaut

napionder Fapstronaut

Share This Page