A Progressive Challenge-A different kind of challenge- all levels

Weird, exactly that happened to me yesterday.
Don't lose hope. You have probably fapped less during nofap than if you wouldn't do nofap which is still progress.

 

day 69/90 . it is a bit of time i don't write. in this time i am trying to improve my life, i try to be more social with others, colleagues, friends but also in family . one of the greatest problem i find in pmo is the fact i close myself and i don''t want to talk with anyone, just i want te be alone, in the shame of the pmo. i understand this is a mechanism i acquired in the years, so now it is not easy to connect with others. but i want improve myself every day.

 

27/90

I managed to stop a wet dream last night. I woke myself out of it at just the right time. It definitely is more likely when i sleep on my back, but i fall asleep on my sides and sometimes wake up on my back. Not sure what to do there.

 

Day 4/10..

 

2/5 done

 

Day 2 of 4

 

You are not an idiot, but I understand your self frustration and disappointment. I have been there over and over again. In the last few weeks I'm slowly learning to hear a voice in my head that knows how to be kind to myself, rather than angry and disgusted. I used to think that meant 'let yourself do whatever you want' but this voice is better than that, it knows that porn isn't a kind indulgence it's a cruel frustrating trick. I was watching an episode of something the other day when it'd finished I skipped back to an old episode I remembered had some nudity in, I scrolled through the video looking for the bit I was interested in and then felt this kind sense of 'this isn't what you want' it wasn't an angry voice shouting, I don't think I was even thinking of nofap or my days streak, I just calmly closed the window and did something else. God knows I've had a thousand urges which are the complete opposite of that, but that one moment did give me a glimpse of how things might be in the future.

Welcome back to the good place.

Everyone is different, but I think the best piece of advice I was given was just get to one day, don't worry about what happens after that.

Congratz on reaching 2/2 Enjoy hitting your next goal.

 

29/32 (bit worried about the next goal of 64 it suddenly seems far away)

 

Then make goal like 40.5

 

Once you hit 32 you're already halfway there. You got this bud

 

4/4 and feel pretty steady. Hopefully starting a new job on Monday which will fill in my time more and also tire me out as its physically demanding. Still have a lot of baggage and anxiety and depression but having an AP I can bounce ideas off is helping.

So 4/8 starts now

 

Relapsed guys. I’m sorry. I didn’t pass a test, was angry, frustrated and sad because of it, and I fapped it away.

I’m feeling like a failure compared to the guys who have succes in this battle. I’m tired, tired of the same crap over and over again. I hate it so much, but I’m addicted to it, a part of me doesn’t want to let it go. I’m sorry lads.

This is amazing to read. For real, you’re doing really well. Keep doing what you’re doing what you’re doing.

Almost a week. That’s progress I’d say.

Don’t give in. It’s totally not worth it.

Nice. You’re doing well.

Welcome back. Yeah, it’s tough. But still, we can’t stop with this battle.

 

You are not a failure, you are trying and have admitted your addiction. More than most addicts can do. So never beat yourself up. That negativity feeds into your addiction so you do it again.

Today is a new day, we are here for you. Learn from it and move forward.

 

3/5 done

 

Thanks. Yeah, I was being a bit dramatic, but I’m just done with this crap, and I still keep going back to it...

 

Day 11 out of my current goal of 20. I haven't posted my progress, in a few days so I'm sorry about that, just been really busy lately. Still going strong.

 

I think, this probably happen because mind is not fully active in sleep. Our will power is less active when we are half asleep.. so I keep snoozing my alarm clock I got new alarm clock app. (Alarmy) I have to solve three math problems to stop alarm..it turn up my mind full active state.
I recommend you guys to get new habit sleep early and wake up early. first few days, you would frustrate.. but you will get used to it. Start waking up half-one hour early of your routine. if you wake up at 8am then try to wake up at 7-7:30am

Anyway if you keep wake yourself late night then you are calling yourself for a trouble.. touching yourself. Wake up early and go to gym you will meet good chiks there in the gym

 

7/8 on no_pmo