30 Days without porn - A whole month!

Well, I made it. 30 days without porn. It feels really good to be here! Overall, quitting porn is one of the best things that has ever happened to me. I feel better about my life. I feel healthier. I feel like I have a healthier sexuality. I feel more intimate with my girlfriend in so many different ways, and my sex life with her has improved. I feel more productive (because I am. All the time I was spending on porn is now being spent on other stuff). I meditate more, I write in a journal regularly, I exercise more, I practice music more, I talk with my friends and family more. Generally, I just live a healthier lifestyle. I'm not sure if NoFap caused me to live a healthier lifestyle, or if living a healthier lifestyle is what allowed me to take the first few steps on this journey, so it's kind of a chicken or egg problem. However, I don't think it matters. The important thing is that I'm here, I made it this far, and I know I can keep going. I believe now more than ever that I will make it to 90 days without porn and beyond.

Having said all of that, I know that I still have some work to do. I still have urges sometimes, although I've learned to deal with them in healthier ways as time has gone on. I know I will still face triggers, stress, loneliness, and other challenges. I know that there will probably be more difficult times on the road to 90 days. I'm excited about making it a whole month, but I also want to stay cautious and be mindful that my addiction might still try to fight its way back into my life. In short, I want to be prepared for difficult times ahead.

I've also noticed a shift in my understanding of NoFap that I hope will be useful to others: When I first started NoFap, I expected my addiction to be mostly gone by the end of my reboot. However, I'm starting to realize something contrary: 90 days is just the beginning. Coming to terms with an addiction is a lifelong process, and one that will need attention from time to time even after you have become adept at coping with urges, triggers, and other threats to your recovery. At 90 days, I don't believe I will be completely free of my porn addiction. I believe that at 90 days I will have a good idea of what it is like to live along side my addiction without letting it control me. There will still be battles after 90 days. I'm sure there will still be urges and triggers and rough times after 90 days. The point is, I've had thirty consecutive days so far of dealing with these battles, and I'm getting better at fighting them every day. I imagine I will be even better at dealing with them by the time I reach 90 days. The battles won't stop at that point, but I think I will be able to fight them without much interference in the rest of my life. As I am right now, when I have an urge to watch porn, I have to force myself to play music, write in my journal, exercise, go for a walk, call a friend, visit this forum, meditate, or something else productive. I hope that by 90 days, these productive actions will feel like normal, integral parts of my life rather than tactics I use to fight against porn, and I'm already starting to feel more comfortable with them after just the first 30.

Good luck to everyone who is struggling with porn addiction. Just know that you can beat it, and I'm here for you if you need support.

 

Yeah, that's an important thing to remember. Like I was saying in my OP, I think I still have battles ahead of me, and I know that I'll still have times where I'm fighting my addiction after I reach 90 days.

I wish you good luck, man. Try to stay productive, and meditate on why you want to do this in the first place. I think once you do that, you'll realize that you have nothing to lose and everything to gain from quitting porn.