A Progressive Challenge-A different kind of challenge- all levels

10/16 which I am really happy with. No bad urges but constantly aware of what I need to do and always be ready

 

day 76

 

I've made a huge mistake a couple of minutes ago - I opened my Instagram account and I saw there something that I didn't want to see (at least not at this point) which kinda ruined my mood but I'm staying strong.
The good part about it is that I'm way too tired to think about it right now and I'll probably forget about it by the morning.
(I won't really forget it because that's something that you can't run away from but at least it will be easier for me to face this new reality)
Anyway, goodnight guys.

Sorry if I have a bad grammar I just had to share it with somebody

No, I didn't read anything. It was my choice. Don't force yourself to take cold showers if you don't enjoy it.

 

9/10 |

 

Welcome aboard.

You just gotta do it. I’m still afraid when I take a cold shower, and most of the time I turn it hot after 30 seconds or something. But the longer the streak, the longer I’m able to shower with cold water.

That’s the danger of social media. Most the time when I’m in a such a situation I can’t stop thinking about it and after some time I relapse because of it. So: stop thinking about it, forget it, maybe quit social media for some time, and learn from this mistake.

All the best.

 

5/7

 

Day 11/20..

 

Delete instagram. Its a waste of time and full of triggers. In my opinion you can't do a reboot while your are trying to manage triggers from all directions at the same time. I personally only check facebook once or twice a week for business purposes only.

Its like being an alcohol addict and living in a bar. You are bound to relapse.

I found it has helped me dramatically. You don't need to be fighting extra urges you get from triggers.

 

34/90

Up doing PC muscle exercises daily now. Im pretty sure this helped me a lot last time with some of my longer streaks not to have nocturnal emissions.

 

Day 2 of 5

 

1/3. I have decided to change my line of work and to stop sitting in front of my computer all day long. No more freelancing. I´ve bought a new bike, too. I´ve almost forgot the joy of being outside, meeting new people and doing some sports. It´s so much better then the alternative. I´m tired of being ashamed of myself.

 

Day 2/7
I had a dream last night about something that is related to my ex.
This is crazy because I think that for the past week I've dreamed about her every single night.
In this dream, I remember that I was hugging with two girls and talking to them about my ex, it was great.
(I'm not sure if it was a lucid dream or not but I really enjoyed it.)
I'm feeling great this morning,
I think it's time for a cold shower now.

It wasn't about porn or masturbation, it was about something from my personal life. (read above)
Sorry that I confused you guys.

Meeh, I'm going out with my friends tonight, they called me right on time

 

11/16 and a few urges this morning, mainly due too a few beers last night but up and out of bed for work and just got on with it.

 

Blaaah.. Relapsed. This was unnecessary... back to 0.
0/1.

 

day 77/90

 

still going strong, almost there next goal 16

 

Day 12/20..

 

Fuck this depression

 

35/90

 

Day 3/7
Why for god's sake is that so hard to let go of a person you loved and to move on?!?!?!?!?!
I woke up today feeling like crap. I just can't get this girl out of my mind
I was actually praying yesterday night before I went to sleep and I forced myself this morning to take a cold shower.
It's been almost three weeks since the last time we talked,
I could never believe in my life that we will ever reach this point