Comparison: Life before and now

You are definitely true! From my own experience I can say that: One relapse is not a one relapse! Relapses meant to me for 5 years! And my longest streak was 150 days, and I relapsed then, one more time, one more... This relapse after my 150 days in my 16, have taken more than 3 years. We are in the same boat. Stay strong!

 

Thanks for sharing your experience brother. Last year i relapsed after 61 days and i can relate to what you've expressed and it definitely sucks!! However, appreciate yourself for having reached this far. Do a retrospection of your whole journey and take those learnings to your advantage for your journey ahead. You can do this!! Stay Strong!! Stay clean!!

 

Thank you for sharing bro, an inspiration to read! Keep it going man! Peace and greetz!!

 

I don't understand. Can you rephrase that? Do you mean one relapse after 150 days dragged you down for 3 years?

 

Actually I tried to quit before I know nofap. I tries to quit firstly maybe 2011 or 12. I was comparising my life before PMO and after PMO. I had more concentration problems, being depressed, anxiety etc. I was questioning myself every single thing I do. And I saw problems with my porn use because I didn't have above these problems in my childhood. Indeed, I had perfectionist approch about my exams in my childhood. In my country, exams the range between 0-100 and 1-5. For example if you got above 85 in an exam, you got 5 points. It means A or A+. Anyway, I was thinking about this issue, why I had difficulties with focus? I thought that and I decided to serious quit in 2013. But even I tried a lot of thing, I couldn't do it. And in 2014 summer I had more experience about porn addiction and decided to quit one more time. Yes, this point I got 150 days. I can't explain how was seem to me amazing life. I got high grades, more talkative, emptyness was gone, mental clarity, all concentration problems gone, I could listen somebody's words, I was listening my teachers differently, I was like a superstar in my class. Everythimg was alright but I had more than 11 hours lessons, I had some transportation problems with going to courses I was under stress. I relapsed then after 150 days with ALL nights porn. My mind blew by it. But nevertheless this relapse, after about 1 week I asked a girl for a date and got rejected. I cried a lot of this day in the highschool toilet. I too ashamed and I could get outside barely after national anthem and everybody left the school. It drives me a deep anxiety and depression. I wanted to escape something and you know what, it was PMO. I was binging and relapsing. In this process I tried to quit but deeper neural pathways didn't let me out. After then I had 60 days, 90 days, 80 days 1, 4, 1 week 3 week etc. Streaks. And this is where I am. And I believe that this process gave me some experiences. Why I couldn't quit easily? Porn addiction is a serious addiction. And this is my second real rebooting.

 

Dude that is awesome and keep it up. Don't give in and you'll get way back 59 days if you keep it up!

 

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