Day 6 of 100, pmo&hand abstinence lol

I've been feeling slightly better.

I usually carry around shame with me due to the content I watch. The genres are obscene on a whole other level. I surprisingly do not miss it.

This is a shock to me. These 5 days behind me have been lightweight. In the past five days I have only entertained one or two lustful thoughts. Over a real life girl. It's crazy. Lol

You know, I'm not superstitious I do not believe, but the stars have lined up for me I feel. Because I'm a compulsive masturbator. Doing it every night since I was about 11 I'm 26 now. I've had brief stints where I wouldn't do it. Very brief for one or two days. Seldom have I gone a week without PMO or MO. In my entire life I have probably gone this long without PMO like three or four times. That's how ingrained this shit, filth, is in my life.

I guess I currently have low testosterone because I'm 26 and have been PMO-ing twice daily for like half a year? Is this a thing? I hope not. I hope I just have grown bored with P. Not temporarily!

My bedroom is still not 100% clean. Working on it.

 

Thank u