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16 Days and feeling pretty good

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by FreeME456, Apr 26, 2018.

  1. FreeME456

    FreeME456 Fapstronaut

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    Hi all. So I'm new to this site in the last couple of weeks. I have wrestled with porn and impulsive non fulfilling sexual activity for quite some time. I am 33 years old and love Jesus but this has lurked in the shadows. It's hard to describe but I feel this sense of, I'm done! I can't live this way anymore. A grace has accompanied this resolve and I am thankful for the boost I have gotten from it. Like I mentioned in the title, I have been off porn,Masturbation, and all other impulsive sexual activity for 16 days. I am married and already our sex time has been so much more intimate. Our sex life was affected by my compulsive sexual behavior but not all that much. Sex with my wife has always been the gold standard. It's so fulfilling and real. This is part of why my struggle with PMO and other impulsive sexual activity has been so maddening. They are so dark, shameful, and unfulfilling. I've visited prostitutes. Masturbated with other men at rest stops (even though I'm straight). I was sexually abused by a man from age 5-8 which we did report and deal with as a family. I believe this plays into my sexual issues. All of those experiences basically produce the same thing. Shame, frustration, guilt, and deeper bondage. I'm just starting my journey but I feel so much better. I already feel much less anxiety and depression. Sex with my wife has been much more intimate. Our connection has been much higher. I really enjoy the whole sexual experience and foreplay now. We had good sex before but this has brought it to a whole new level. It's like a real form of communication and love versus just a good romp. Anyways just thought I'd shoot out some thoughts and see if anyone might relate or whatever. Blessings to you all!
    I'm starting with a 90 challenge.
     
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  2. FapstronautCumsmonaut

    FapstronautCumsmonaut Fapstronaut

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    Nice to hear that my friend, I'm also in similar stage cause i'm currently two days in cold turkey. Haven't felt anything yet but im sure it will come.
    On the part about being abused when young i think it is somehow related to pmo, it also happened to me by an older kid(16) when i was around 10 but i wasn't abused, i was just gullible at that time.
    Speaking of Jesus just recently i started reading the Bible, i never had before even as a kid and think it cause i rarely go to church. What i can advice or tell you about the Bible is that when you read(if you're new to reading it like me) start with the gospels like book of John, Luke etc they talk about Jesus' and God's miracles and Their doings. It will surely cement you faith in God.
    All in all wish you all the strength and might upon you.
     
  3. FreeME456

    FreeME456 Fapstronaut

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    Thanks man. I really appreciate the response. Great suggestion! Keep moving forward!
     

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