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Ain't counting days anymore

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Democrat45, Apr 26, 2018.

  1. Democrat45

    Democrat45 Fapstronaut

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    This is probably the nth article discussing this, but previously, I counted my days of NoFap. But now, I don't. Why? Because the practice of counting became what I call a "god" in and of itself: I attached my self-worth on the number of days I didn't masturbate, and when I do relapse, I get sad, even if I'm not really aware or I'm just denying it.

    Now, I just don't. I just let God naturally keep me off PMO'ing and then if I relapse, I don't condemn myself anymore. Quoting from Batman Begins, "Why do we fall? So we can get back up."

    But that doesn't mean that I'll go on PMO'ing all I want 'cuz I don't count my days anymore. It's just saying that I know God is my strength so I cannot do PMO, and that I don't care about the days. Because even if I relapse on Day 1, Day 5, Day 30 or whatever, what matters is I ask forgiveness from Him and just, continue, knowing my progress in this pilgrimage is not erased when I relapse. After all, before, I'd go on months straight PMO'ing, but now, I don't. Yesterday I relapsed, but then, I no longer go more than a week's streak PMO'ing.

    I'm done counting my days. The practice cages people in a box and does not give people freedom. God gives freedom. As one said in a Christian anti-porn PDF I'm reading, "Freedom might mean you never look at porn again, but never looking at porn again doesn't always mean you are free." This means one may just try to avoid porn just to try to prove something to others or to himself, to make him/herself feel better. This is toxic because this mindset might lead to someone relapsing just because no one's looking.

    So, no counting. Just march forward in God's freedom. Amen! :) God Bless my fellow NoFappers! :)
     
    Last edited: Apr 26, 2018
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  2. PMO addict

    PMO addict Fapstronaut

    I agree

    I just use my day counter in moderation but I don't dwell on it too much

    However I find myself saying, Come on, you have 7 days, don't you want to get 30, and 300, and 2,415 days??? Then people will see your sig and really think you are really cool.

    LOL

    I fantasize about what my life will be like with a higher day count. LOLOL

    It is so silly I am like laughing now (at myself but not in a mean way)
     
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  3. Democrat45

    Democrat45 Fapstronaut

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    Ah OK. I respect your decision. But, for me, I really want to discard the country because it makes me too mindful of what others think of me.
     
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  4. PMO addict

    PMO addict Fapstronaut

    Hahaha yes I can not get over that!!! I am not mature enough to give it up!!! Maybe one day LOL.

    I had some good laughs from my responses to considering giving up my day counter. I need it!!! LOL
     

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