I Still Don't Get It

I wish that “fear” would’ve stopped you from lying in the very beginning.

 

Thank you for writing this. I read this earlier in the day .. and it really help me to reset / refocus.

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I've been thinking something somewhat similar: I've been thinking about the past / the present / and the future ... how much time and energy and focus should I be thinking about the past / the present and its current situation because of failures in the past / the future, meaning what I do today, tomorrow and beyond.

I DO think it's important to understand past failures and understand how those failures continue to hurt people around me today. So I cannot lose sight of those difficult realities.

BUT, I cannot focus on _only_ that. I must, at the same time, lift my eyes to the present-future...to what I can do today/tomorrow/beyond to improve things, improve myself, make amends, etc.

Staying only fixated on the past and my past failures does not yield positive momentum for the future.

 

Hi @Fighting Axeman, what other places did you have in mind? I know what you mean. I have been going to SAA for around 8 years and it's the success stories that kept me coming back. Seeing other people thrive, live in peace, mend their relationships, etc gave me hope.

Admitting to the problem is the beginning but the solution doesn't start working until we have hope. In the rooms, I used to refer to that as "the chasm" between steps 1 and 2. I knew I had a problem but I didn't believe I could be helped. It's a terrible place of despair to be stuck in. So, how do I have hope? By seeing other people do it and following the blueprint they followed.

Peace,
-Quinn