So it begins..

Hey all I'm Dil,

I'm an honest guy who has come to the end of himself. Never did I think I'd ever find myself in a support group for over coming PMO. Yet here i am.

My journey started with the 56k modem and the release of pictures on to phones. Curiosity got my little 12 year old brain spinning. As technology advanced, so did my addiction. Down the rabbit hole I fell, far from grace.

We now arrive at the present day being 28 years young. The journey of life has led me unexpectedly. Certain understandings in life have I obtained. Certain growth was made, yet the 12 year old boy still remains.

I like to think I'm a strong willed individual. Yet two weeks is the longest ive ever gone. One week is usually where the ice cracks.

Triggers are usually social media and messages. I've never had an issue with getting girls attention. In fact I became quite talented at it.

Yet all I could do was hurt girls. So I ended sleeping around. I've never been able to commit or fall in love. I'd still flirt and message, but stop at that.

Settled for the grand PMO. My conscience told me I'm only abusing one and not many. So now when I get flicked a message from the past or a new girl. It's a massive trigger. I would then find a actress with similarities and proceed with the deed until i felt empty.

My eyes have witnessed enough poison. My hands have out done themselves.

My goal is the "hardmode" and "monkmode". With a "retention" of life.

First goal: 30days. (Social media)
Second goal: 90days. (Social media)
Completion: life, complete freedom to never return.

Sorry if I posted anything I shouldn't have.

 

Thanks for the advice, will do.