She is not my type..at the moment?

Hey guys, long time no see..

Still fighting my demons, getting better every day. I got some problems in my relationship and I would like to discuss the topic with you.

Lovely girl. Me. Last summer one night stands. Getting into the relationship. Works perfectly for almost a year now. She cute, she loves me, she would do anything for me. Sex is good, her sex drive is high.

But..I feel she is not my type anymore (talking about only appearance). She is the curvy type girl, and lately tbh she put on a few pounds through the relationship. She knows that, she hates it, still eating unhealthy asf..

I love her, truly. When we got together, my mentality was 100% that appearance doesnt really matter (although I really found her pretty sexy at the time, she is not a 10 but solid 9 for me and 7 on an avarage scale)
Lately she doesnt turn me on that much and I am getting into skinny girls more and more. I do not want to throw this whole thing away because of this appearance thing. Her personality is really unique in this world and I know that clearly. But I do not know what to do..
She started to recognise that I am getting cold lately, but I am afraid to tell her all this, because I know her too much, she would just cry like a 6 year old that I find other women more attractive by the look.

I know that because of nofap my libido can go low, but I dont think thats the case.

Any experience on the topic?

 

Hey! Thanks for the reply, it was helpful in a way!
It opened my eye on things I couldnt see till now, so really thank you!
Although I think not everything in life is black and white. I sacrificed my friends, my hobbies and free time, school... had depression, taught and learnt lots of things for this relationship.
She had various mental problems because of her last bf, I picked her up and put her into a fcking white horse so I wouldnt say I really do not deserve her.
But I totally feel your comment because I didnt gave you these infos. To sum it up we had been trough a lot, thats why I sad I do not want to end this because my minds is fucked for some reason. I want to see how can I change myself.

But really, I do appreciate your comment!

 

That should sum things up. Back in the days my brain needed like 5 different type of girls opened in different webpages to have everything in my mind, so I do not "lose" my "heavenly" O...
I knew (or at least hoped really) that this is caused (at least partly) because of my nofap programme.

Thank you really, much appreciated!

 

Well.. Time will give the answer to these questions I guess.
I hope that I know enough of relationships, so both me and her can survive this crisis without breaking up.

She knew about my addiction before we got together because at the time I had ED caused by constantly telling myself that if I am going to have sex I am gonna have premature ejaculation because of the nofap programme... So it was basically a vicious circle, because in the end I couldnt even had sex.. (lol)

After CowardlyLion's comment I thought immediately about talking more deeply about how does she feel herself in the relationship beside she is really in love with me... but tbh I am afraid she is not emotionally intelligent enough to see trough the pink fog, and I do not want to scare her with it now, because she can really go insane in her mind..(she is a black belt overthinker.. )

Thanks for your helping questions, it really helps a lot!