This Picture Really Motivates Me.

Just finished beating off to unhealthy fetish porn that has been polluting my brain for longer than i like to admit. Sometimes I don't even feel like i'm even capable of real love like that anymore but then i remember its all down to myself conditioning my brain that way. How does it feel to go 300 plus days, do you not feel like you are back in touch with your true feelings even that far in?

 

On the longer streaks i have been on i do find myself looking at women differently (my best has been a little over a quarter of your run,)I did notice my thoughts turned more towards looking for a connection beside just wanting to sleep with the girl so that part of me is still alive. the problem i have is i'm 36 years old and i've been in relationships if i'm lucky 3 years combined while i have been fapping 20 years easy. I think faping makes us feel inferier and undeserving of real love from others. The good news is we can take this back but not without a real battle with ourselfs first! The picture is in my mind what i aim for, To be able to give and receive love. I will hold that thought as i move forward.

I would imagine you would be in a place where you can say you are cured surely. I guess as addicts we can never let our guards down as slipping back into the habit is so easy its scary.