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I'm finally starting

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by Jagman, May 29, 2018.

  1. Jagman

    Jagman Fapstronaut

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    Heyall,
    I guess i'm finally starting..
    I tried to start a long time ago but I couldn't bring myself to engage in this community and face myself and my problem but I guess this was it. I first got into porn a few years ago and was hooked. At first it was gifs and drotic images but gradually i found live porn and porn sites. When that got boring I started delving into other shit like bdsm and starting increasing my usage for porn. GOD it feels so good but i hated it at the same time. When I was masterbating it was great but after I felt like shit. Soon I was searching up messed up things like forced porn and other worse things and eventually whenever I had a problem instead of facing it I shrunk down into my room and sought for porn as an answer and an alleviation. I started abstaining when I realised it was negatively affecting my mood and making my grades dropped and I started abstaining. GOD I tried but the highest I ever got was a week before relapsing. It was the worse feeling and I felt so bad that I couldn't talk to anybody about it becuase of how shameful it was. Then I came here. I made an account but then I just couldn't bring myself to write or do anything becuase I knew people would provide me with help and support and I wasnt ready to accept it. Now though, I am and I'm ready to start. I just needed to let this out, so that someone knows what I'm going through and even if no one reads this and god I hope someone does. Thanks just for understanding.
     
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  2. Hi. Welcome to forum!

    Make sure you crate a personal journal thread in Reboot Logs section and blog there on a regular basis. As well as just generally be active participant in various forum discussions. I recommend this to everybody new here because it's the major thing that helped me when I was first starting. Just lurking on forums, reading and learning is great. But it usually is so much more powerful to engage. It helps to keep us motivated and accountable when we are active part of community. And keeps this in front of our minds so we don't forget about importance of it and slip away in our old habits. Sharing is also therapeutic. This is a major reason why AA meetings work so good. But that was developed before internet era. These days we can get most of the same benefits online through communities like this. So don't underestimate the power of active participation.

    I would also like to suggest you to look into mindfulness meditation. It has helped me personally tremendously to learn how to deal with urges. It takes a while to get good at it and notice results, so you need to be consistent with it, but once you do it's very powerful. It has been used by sages for thousands of years to deal with various issues of the mind. And in recent decades the science is also catching up to what ancient sages have know for centuries. Meditation these days are widely used as very effective tool by psychologists for treating addiction and by neurologists for supporting recovery of the brain. It is a great exercise for the brain the same way as jogging is great exercise for the body. Check out this Ted talk, it gives a good idea of what's it about when it comes to philosophy. As far as practical side of it there is this awesome smartphone app called Headspace for guided meditations to get you started.

    Wish you lot's of strength and success in your reboot journey!
     
  3. Septimus

    Septimus Fapstronaut

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    Welcome! I am glad you're here. Lots of us here understand. I hope you keep coming back.
     
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  4. Jagman

    Jagman Fapstronaut

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    Thank you man
     
  5. Nadamotain

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    Yeh the cool thing about this site is we can reach out of the darkness and start living without guilt. It seems that we all want a little of both worlds. But it doesn't work that way for me. I have had to give it all to the god universe and no more "sneak a peak" bull----. Congrats and stay focused.
     
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