Hit Rockbottom, Time To Get Back Up

After a long, troublesome and bad relationship I was in, it’s safe to say that I’m at my absolute rock bottom. My entire reality has had a pradigm shift this past year from my religious beliefs, to my sexual orientation.
Everything feels really confusing and some of this stuff, like the sexual orientation, I feel is a by product of letting myself getting sucked into porn due to feeling like shit about myself.
Currently I have a real problem with cam sites and cam to cam interactions. I’m longing for a sense of connection to fill this void of loneliness but this only further sinks me into the pit I’ve dug for myself.
Like I stated previously, I’m really confused right now but one thing I know for sure is this pesky bad habit has to go. I’ve let it control me for too long. Day 1 starts now.

 

Day 1 was a success yesterday. Decided to focus more of my free time and energy into writin lyrics and today I’m going to see if I can learn how to produce beats.
I find music has always been a great outlet for me and making my own is great way to use time productively.

 

Day 2 was another success.
Starting to notice an actual emotional attraction towards women again instead of simply a physical one.
Temptations have been minimal but they usually are for the first 4-5 days for me.
So far feeling better and still going strong.
Day 3, HERE WE GO!

 

Yeah dawg I’m 7 days in!
I moved my post over to the 20-24 section if you wanna follow along there.