My Last Post

This is my last post relating to my forthcoming suicide and my last post on this site. I’m going to delete my account soon. I thought that using this site would help me and allow me to interact with like-minded people like myself. I have reached a point where it’s safer for me to just expect the worst of everyone which is something I never wanted to do, ever since I was a kid, but alas, I have reached out to people both on this site, and just like in real life, after a few messages or paragraphs, they think my life changes and they pat themselves on the back while I go back to my miserable existence. Some think, without having a clue who I am, what I do, or what I’m going though I’m unhappy because I sit on my ass all day doing nothing. Because they tried to do something with their life, it’s worked out for them, so it must automatically work out for everyone else. Well it doesn’t, which surprises me that a lot of grown men do not know this. I’m all alone, and I’m past the point of wanting someone to talk to. But whoever reads this I want to let you know, that the one thing I could rely on more than anything else, the only thing that could make me feel something was porn. Even after everything I’ve been though, I don’t have any regrets about watching porn for hours on end, days at a time. It’s almost farcical that I used a porn addiction site to realize that. Porn isn’t real, yet it has not lied to me or used me the way people in real life has. The way people I have cared have done. I wanted a friend, I wanted a girlfriend, I wanted a job I enjoy, and I just wanted to be happy. Unfortunately a lot of people are not meant to be happy and I just want to sleep. And I actually tried, before someone insinuates that I have done nothing or not enough. My birthday is in 81 days, which is when I plan to kill myself but I don’t know if I’ll be able to hold on that long tbh. I’m saving up for some helium, because I have read that’s one of the more “painless” ways to go. You don’t know me so don’t tell me you care about me, or you don’t want me to die, or that things will get better. I’m an anonymous user on this site, no one will remember in a few days/weeks. I want to post this to show that when say stuff like that it’s only to be nice. Things may or may not change. No one knows. I’m not waiting much longer anymore. I’m not necessarily for porn, but I’m not against it either, because but it has gotten me though some tough times. I been used, lied to, told to kill myself, spat on, touched, bullied, etc. I would say it’s been real, but it’s been awful for the most part. And after posting this, I’m probably going to relapse again. Thumbs up.

 

Wait! Please wait. Let me help you. I'll read your previous posts.

 

I'll help you get a girl.

 

I'll help you be a chick magnet

 

I really hope so. I'll post a video to prove I can help.

 

Yes!

 

The main concern is how to get a girl to like you. Follow my steps becausr most of them will be focused on your mind.

 

Sorry. Let's focus on your mind first. I'll write what to do

 

Lie on your bed to your right side. after that, close your eyes.

After that, remember the thing which makes you frustrated for 1 sec then immediately ask yourself the kind of feeling you had. After that, ask yourself why u were feeling like that.

After you get the answer, each time u feel frustrated, try to make the images u see in your brain surface without u feeling the negative emotion.

After that, repeat the cycle.