huge relapse - feeling at an all time low

Hi guys last two days have been a disaster for me, I've pmo 7 times after an 11 day streak. I have let myself down badly and just as importantly everyone here who has taken the time to post messages of support and encouragement on this forum directed towards me!

I know what i need to do but just can't seem to bring on the needed changes. Today i will. The mornings are very often were i fail. i wake up and all i can think of is pmo right away. When i enjoyed my 68 day streak at the start of the year my mornings where very different. wake up and straight out of bed, pour a coffee then right into a cold shower, Drink coffee and have healthy breakfast, 10 mins of weights get dressed and off to work. Now its lie in bed for 20/30 mins deside to pmo, skip breakfast most days rush off to work. When i fail in the morning i will just come back and waste the rest of my day pmoing as i am then stuck in a bad loop.

Right folks here's how things are going to be, My days needs purpose again and routine.

1. Mornings need to be as there were. Full and productive
2. Evenings need to be filled also. There is a gym 5 mins away from my house. I'm joining today. I'm going to do a lot of swimming/ fitness to fill the hole that pmo will leave in my life
3. My diet has been crap lately (Luckly i can eat crap and stay in ok shape, Still its not healthy) back to pretty much all good stuff with the odd treat not the other way round
4, Make time for friends and family- I've been very self absorbed lately, I need people at times like this instead of giving in to the urge to shut myself off until i feel heeled.

Again i feel like i have let myself and everyone down, Feeling like a bit of a lost case at the moment. I need to start to back my words up with actions. Thanks to everyone here for your continued support and i will of course continue to give my support back in kind. We are all in this together and together we can provide the support and belief in each other to end our addictions once and for all!

Peace out

 

Hey man you have gone a full two months i sincerely hope you get through through today. If you relapse now you gain nothing and run the risk of losing everything. have you replaced pmo with something (Relationships/ Fitness or some other form of self improvment? I now belive thats why i have been failing so far. Don't let pmo worm its way back into your life mate, You are much better off without it no matter how hard it tries to make you doubt that fact