Day 354? Or Day 77? No PMO, Mental Hospital, SSRI Drugs, Severe Depression!

Hello, I started nofap June 28th 2017. Successfully reaching month 8 in February 2018. However in month 3 I was becoming unwell, I had weaned off My Antipsychotic meds and saw that my confidence was good! When on Antipsychotic meds, you feel like a zombie and completely flatlined 365 days.

But The nofap after coming off meds was rewiring my brain I later came to learn and, caused me agitation, severe depression, mental imbalance, but my ok ish - looks were improving though! I left my number on the windscreen of a girls car who was eyeing me and Yh they got back to me.. her brother it was and he wanted me dead lol it was a random act which was me gaining confidence.

So I was put back on meds against my will, after psychiatric drs couldn’t get me into hospital 4 times. On their final attempt they had to lie to win. An amazing skill on nofap I developed was talking like Malcolm X during my psychiatric assessments. It was pi**ing them off.

My driving confidence boosted, was hitting the motorway on test runs more often. Day and night. Eyesight was slowly improving especially night sight.

When I became unwell, I thought it were the SSRI that caused me brain damage. I started M and O aged 7-8, my urges were too strong. I will write extra stuff here one day but best to keep it short.

Currently on day 77. It’s so easy when you disconnect the internet and set up parental controls and sit outside more often. Better to engage your mind.

I still get urges. But as I’m on medication I’m a zombie and can’t feel any benefit of nofap at moment. Just reading your posts gives me encouragement that in next 6 months when am off meds I know I’ll be in a better place. I truly hope so.

Nofap doc said on here it’s a good combination to be on meds n NoFap.

I had one last thing to say, my desire was to learn to read and write. My uncle was an Obama lookalike and read voraciously. But I’m not sure if NoFap is holding it all in. I’m sure I inherited the gene. I did struggle in school a lot and last thing..

I have Hypo Thyroid ism.
Could fapping have contributed to my development of Underactive Thyroid?

Thx

 

I’m on Abilify injections. High dose = flat libido, depression induced, weight gain etc. Can’t feel any nofap powers on these meds.

 

And what is your streak at moment?

 

Currently on Day 81
I sometimes feel a burning sensation in left lobe of brain, the hippocampus region and the cortex I think. It just flares up then simmers down.

So far whilst I’m on an antipsychotic med, it’s not allowing me to do anything productive. Except sit in garden do some gardening and pace the house up n down. And sometimes read a book. But without being able to retain the reading. It sucks.

My first streak as above was 7 months. Due to a relapse, Currently on day 81. I think the next 90 days will be easier.

Thx

 

I tried cold showers. It worked .. but I was regressing, I think my depression is pmo induced from age 10. I think weaning off meds fast was probably why I ended up back in hospital. I couldn’t get out the house, my brain in month 3/4 was on fire. I also feel like from aged 5 I couldn’t sit still and was so horny. When you’re on Antipsychotic medication you feel crap.

Update ******
I was slightly edging yesterday to the point I almost, but didn’t orgasm. I managed to retain it. And had a cold shower immediately.

Does edging count as a reset?

 

Oh I haven’t look at any p**n in 90 days.. just fully clothed women