Constant relapse ??

Hey there,

I know right? I've once been there and found it extremely hard to stick to the program. I'm on day 82 of nofap and believe it or not I am free off porn and masturbation. I literally can't stand them anymore. Yes it was hard and I relapsed countless times, hopeless Is how I felt. But then I decided one day I can't be controlled by urges any longer, I can't be controlled by something that can't even speak for itslef. I told myself that's it I'm done. I realised how horrible it felt everytime I relapsed and everytime I would urge I would think to myself "dude U know what happened last time, how horrible it ended and how depressed you felt, do U really wanna go back there?"

That's when I realised how much control this Had on my brain and how it has been affecting my sexually experiences. I wanted, for once in my life to have sex with a condom and have that feel extremely good, I wanted to use condoms without my erection dropping.

When my relationship with my girlfriend started I felt much more motivated and determined to win this. And now when we make love my mind goes totally blank and I just enjoy the sex all the way. I don't have to imagine other women to get off and the sex feels a 100 times better then when we did it when I was on day 30. I'm on such a beautiful stage right now and for the fact that I also body build has made me a sexual object to some ladies, lol TRUE NO LIE. I am jealous of me at times. I dound things that could keep me busy.. started lifting weights so every time I knock off from work I am at gym till 5 or 6pm and when I get home I eat dinner and I sleep till the next day same routine. On weekends I hang out with my buddies for drinks sometimes.. since I have to watch my body diet.

Then I also have to meet up with my girlfriend for sex sessions or chills.
Life is far more great and to think wayyy before all this I was just someone women barely wanted. I was thin and depressed. Not a good look trust me.

So what I'm trying to tell you is... Only you as an Individual decode where U wanna go and do. Your responsible for your own destiny and U the only one who has the power to change route. So what's it going to be buddy? Continuous relapses or freedom?

 

it seems u r getting good benefits . few qustions u have gf. did u ever precum b/c she herself was wearing hot cloths or talking about sex or hot stuff ? did u enjoy that precum b/c it happend to u b/c of ur gf. realising ur sexual thoughts in positive acceptable ways is much better than being addicted to pmo.

 

Exactly Budd. Just look in the mirror and make that promise to yourself. Sometimes during the progress U will get urges and U will try to google things thay will make you feel better about masturbation but that is just your btain tricking you. You will get wet dreams too. But don't fall through. I believe in you and if I could do it then so could you.

 

Not at all hey. No pre cum at all. My penis has gotten it's sensetivity back and I no longer have sex for up to 30 minutes anymore because of lack of sensation my max now is 10 minutes at least when I try not to cum but if I don't try it takes me 5 minutes to cum. I love the new benefits coz I don't have to imagine stuff anymore I get to enjoy sex and communication during sex with my girlfriend. But as for precum, not at all.

It also has its disadvantages coz my girlfriend wants me to last longer then 30 minutes. I thunk she is just talking though coz she is lazy either way I would have to do the work so we just cut sessions and continue with rounds...