[21-CHALLENGE] THE TWENTY ONE DAYS CHALLENGE !

i am very happy and i can see difference inside me after quitting P and M

today is my 33 day and its almost completed.
my wife came back from vacations. from last 4 days i was alone in my room and i also did my work on computer
but i really really thanx to my higher power and you people i am able to maintain my recovery
and i feel very proud when she came back and i was looking in her eyes with confidence there is 1 feeling inside me
i was trying to convey her with my feeling that i am honest i did not cheat you
but she did not admire me lot but she happy to hear i am clean
but i am very satisfy and comfort that i am honest with my self and i quit PMO for my self not for her
i wish to GOD i can maintain my Recovery

 

Day 2

 

4/21 today was a bit more difficult. Stay clean everybody. It is worth it!

 

Alright, Day 0.

 

2/21

The first half of the day was great. Then work stress had me desiring to escape. But I stayed focused and got my shit done. Feels great to stay clear of PMO on a day like today. Now that I’m out of the flatline and feeling easily aroused, it takes more willpower to abstain. But I did it!

Thanks to everyone here. This forum and the people here gave me the motivation and perspective to succeed.

 

Day 5. Feeling very few urges to PM, sex drive with wife is much improved.

 

Day 0 today. Finished the 7 day challenge and the 14 day challenge back to back. Hope to keep the good times going.

 

Day 4 of 21!!!! It’s funny how when left to our own devices we are easy to crumble & fall but then somehow, someway, be it thru divine intervention, a coincidence, impeccable timing or what have you, life steps in and prevents us from harming ourselves further. If we’d only take the time to listen and take note. Just something I’ve noticed happening a lot in my life but still I discover ways to make all that aid go for naught. Basically what I’m saying is that today I was edging. I’m not gonna lie. And when I do, usually my whole day gets wasted. Hardly anything can pull me away from it. But as I was reaching a certain climax today (perhaps a poor choice of words but no I didn’t orgasm) my mother knocked on my door and entered my room. She wanted to see how my day had gone as we’ve recently moved to a new state and are living with relatives. Afterwards, my urges for MO had subsided and I got myself something to eat. Now what if that hadn’t happened at that moment? Would I be typing up my next admission of a relapse in this post? And more importantly, why is it that after saving my streak and persisting til Day 4, that tomorrow I’ll be faced with these same challenges all over again? You’d think one save would be enough right!? But sadly life ain’t like that (@ least not mine). Had this been a videogame, I’d be paying real money for extra life by now lol (even while the supposed strategy guide were sitting right beside me).

Sigh, I just wanted to convey how it feels everyday with this PMO crap. It’s perhaps the one thing or maybe one of the very few things that I haven’t been able to fully control and yet it weighs SO MUCH on ones daily life. However, with all that being said I’d like to reiterate that today IS Day 4 of 21, and tomorrow IS another day on this path. So let’s keep bettering ourselves!

P.S. sorry for long post

 

I'm on day 7 of 21.

 

Day 7/21.

Busy day today, which helped keep urges at bay.

 

Day 2/21

 

4/21! ~ I should really not have the phone next to my bed!

 

Day 15/21

Feeling good, feeling great. Feeling good, feeling great; how are you!

 

Day 8: done.
Day 9: In progress...

 

14/21

 

day 0/21

 

16 th day no pmo...11/21 strong and counting

 

Bro yu will see miracle later on keep going

 

Today is 34 days it's passing
Thanx

 

Day 1.
No urges.