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I lost the love of my life because of porn

Discussion in 'Loneliness' started by Riot02, Jul 1, 2018.

  1. Riot02

    Riot02 Fapstronaut

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    Hi everyone
    A couple of months ago a girl and her parents moved in a couple of blocks where I lived. The next day I was hanging out with my friends and a couple of hours later I was walking home by myself and then I met the new girl outside her house. We talked for at least 10 mins and me and her enjoyed our conversation. Before I left she asked for my snapchat username and I gave it to her. The next day she texed me and we were texting for half an hour. We're talking and texting each other every day and I started having feeling for her but I didn't tell her until she told me how she feels about me coz I knew during those days she liked me more to be in a relationship with me. A couple of days later I felt like watching porn ( this was before I was in NoFap) and I relapsed. Then two mins later she texted me saying that she likes me, I was thrilled. We were texting for a couple of mins, something in my body told me I should flirt with her I said no but I couldn't help myself so I did something that I will never forget, I sent her a nude pic, without thinking and hesitation I sent it. She told me that she was disgusted and didn't want me to be with her anymore. I was ashamed of what I did but I was wondering why did I send it, then I was wondering was it the porn that made me want to send her nudes so I looked it up on google and a doctor said that pornography can cause ur emotions to be out of control I was disgusted and ashamed that I watched porn and masturbated in the first place. A couple of days had past and we weren't talking to each other and I heard that she's going to a bording school next week. It wasn't because of me it was because her grandmother was sick and no had to take care of her so that's why. A couple of days later just before she was moving again, I told her that I was sorry, she accept the apology and I had nothing to do nothing to say but ti cry I was ashamed and embarrassed of what I did and there was nothing there to fix it. The love of my life is gone because of me. I'm sorry for the long post but I just wanted to get this off my chest.
     
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  2. reborn999

    reborn999 Fapstronaut

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    It's not because if porn, but it's your own fault, never send nude pics, that's a key rule, there is this guy on call of duty, red kiwiz, he sented a dick pic and got almost in jail as it was an underage girl lying about her
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  3. wow sending nude pics never works and it could come back to bite you as she stated she was not into that , I think your better than that
     
  4. Dude, she is not love of your life, but the girl which have offered you a little bit of attention. You don't know her, her daily habits and the most likely you will not end in relationship with her (simple statistics and some experience). So, you don't need to blame yourself so much and exaggerate your emotions. The last thing- this is only the different city. If you love her than abstain from PMO and othrr girls for year and then try to talk with her, but no earlier.
     
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  5. reborn999

    reborn999 Fapstronaut

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    what id you done it in real life, I bet story would be different, I think social media, and all of the comminications are trash ,and I'm trash at typing
     
  6. SportsFanatic

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    That sucks dude but hey, lesson learned. Now you know not to do that...you can move on from this and become a better you. :cool:
     

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