31y/o - Amsterdam - Trying to stop for at least a year - Write about my experience

Hey everyone,

I'm a 31 year old guy from Amsterdam, the Netherlands. Haven't watched porn since my birthday which is almost two months ago. I've read about NoFap in a Dutch magazine and became quite interested in the platform. Supposedly Amsterdam is a super liberal city, but with my friends porn still feels like a taboo subject. They admit watching it (even though they have wives or girlfriends), but that's about it. This seems like a community where people (because of anonymity?) can be more open!

I watched it too. A lot. Since I was 13.

There are a couple of reasons I wanted to stop:
- Watching more & more extreme stuff. It normally doesn't turn me on, but you know after 2 or 3 rounds..
- The shame afterwards
- The feeling of not being in control
- It takes a lot of time
- Anxiety when a girlfriend or someone else touches my laptop/phone
- Discover more about real attraction
- Enjoy sex more (there were times I was thinking of a porn actress instead of her)
- Curiosity in general
- I want to write about my experience and possibly NoFap (in Dutch)

I see a lot of guys here stop masturbating completely. I decided (for now) to just stop watching porn. Also I won't watch sexy music videos or read erotic stories on purpose, because I know that ruined it for me during my last attempt (40 days).

Right now my goal is not to watch porn for one year. I chose that period because:
- It's a natural cycle of four seasons, long enough to see if it works.
- My brain sometimes tells me to just watch because: I won't last in the end anyway, it won't have any measurable effect etc. etc. now I can tell it: try for at least a year, and if doesn't work for you can still watch afterwards. Makes it easier.

Well, nice meeting you all!