I think my 90 no PMO streak backfired on me!

The point of NoFap isn't to increase your sensitivity and pleasure response to porn, but to re-wire your brain to respond to real people, not pixels.

Think about it like this. NoFap the equivalent of a smoker trying to quit for good, not abstain for a couple days to regain a nicotine "high" when using.

 

Wait, somebody asked you if your junk worked when you were with a human being and you said "Yes". I'm confused.

 

Alright, let me give you a different analogy, then. Say you have a car (I'm not an automobile expert, so cut me some slack on this analogy) that you constantly filled with any kind of gasoline all your life. In fact, regular is cheaper, so you usually resort to that. But your car hasn't been performing like it should, so you decide to get it overhauled, and when the mechanics are done they say to you "we had to overhaul your engine, so it won't run so well on regular, you have to switch to premium gas." Is your car broken? No, it'll run just fine. It just doesn't like the old stuff anymore, and to be frank, the old stuff wasn't very good for it anyway, so there's no need to fret about it.

Not being as big of a fan of porn anymore doesn't mean you're broken. Stick to premium, my friend.

 

It’s important that you don’t test your boners during a reboot because it can lead to blue balls or worse a return to PMO

 

Your question has been asked and answered multiple times, but I wanted to call you out on what you said here.

The best way to see if your penis (brain) is working fine or not is within a healthy sexual relationship. In the absence of that, what's the point? I've been a man my entire life, and boners are good for 1 of 2 things: getting off or having sex. Otherwise, it's just something that goes away once I get up go to the bathroom.

Another danger for you is becoming so obsessed with whether or not you have a working penis (brain), that when you do end up in a healthy relationship, you run the risk of having ED or DE because you can't allow yourself to relax and simply enjoy the moment or experience.

You've successfully rewired your brain after 90 days. Sounds as if your motivations for doing so were not grounded in a strong belief system centered around the fact that porn is an evil scourge and should be avoided at all costs. Women (or even men for that matter), generally speaking, would be far happier entering into a relationship with someone who does not view porn and would much rather focus all sexual energy on them.

If I was an alcoholic, and I had 90 days of sobriety, I wouldn't open a liquor bottle to make sure I still enjoy the sensations of alcoholism. If, upon opening the bottle, I find the smell offputting, I wouldn't then drink it to see if I'm still "working".

You said this:

If you still believe you were addicted to porn, then you're doing the same thing as the alcoholic in my analogy. This makes zero sense.

Please - stop obsessing about having a normal penis (brain). If worse comes to worse and you enter into a relationship and find things aren't working as they should (highly unlikely), then talk about it with a Dr., but in the meantime, take a deep breath and if you get the occasional morning wood or boner, take confidence in the fact that your penis (brain) is working just fine.

 

Some times you just lack the inner drive. Let it go. its not a backfire...

 

I meant within the thread. I didn't have any new insight into your question other than what has already been stated. I did, however, want to point out again the dangerous behavior of flirting with a drug to which you admitted you were addicted to. I understand your reason behind it. Believe me, I've done it many times. When stuck in my addiction cycle, every time I had a low libido or I thought things weren't working, I would binge on porn to "jumpstart" my sex drive again. I somehow thought I wasn't complete if I wasn't able to get an erection on demand. I've since backed away from that and actually welcome and look forward to flatlining since it gives me a moment of clarity.

Strongly encourage you to please stay away from your drug and move forward with recovery. Your life will be better off for it. I obviously don't know you specifically so I can't make any definitive statements with regards to your physiology, but from what you've said in this thread, my inclination is to believe there's absolutely nothing wrong with you.

Another point worth mentioning. 90 days is an arbitrary number. There are an infinite number of factors that go into a successful reboot. For example, I can go 90 days without PMO, but if I'm indulging in fantasy during the bulk of that time, I've come nowhere near rewiring my brain. 90 days is not a mile marker for some magical cure. It's simply a benchmark. I don't say this to discourage you or anyone, only to point out that recovery from addiction is a life long journey and not a destination.

 

Cos you've re wired your brain into getting aroused by real partners. Which is good and healthy! Try staying a little time alone with a woman, and make out. You'll know how hard you get and you well you perform.

 

You're just experiencing a flat line wherein your testosterone is at an all time low. I suggest you start training with weights. Squats, press and deadlifts. It will surely help you to increase your testosterone levels.

 

Dude most people don't just instantly get an erection just from peeking at porn, unless they're like 13 years old. Usually it takes a little while. A man in good sexual health will get one from the right amount of suggestion, flirting, foreplay etc., it's more complicated than just porn=stiffy.

Also, it's supposed to droop back down after you're done with it. That's what it does. And 'testing' something isn't exactly sexy. Imagine telling a girl you are 'testing' her to see if she gets wet. It ain't gonna happen, mate

You haven't broken yourself. It's just a little different. And I'm sure the strength will come back to you in time. But don't use porn to wake it up anymore. Fantasize about something or someone real. Something more subtle. Flirt. Read something a little erotic.

Also, like some other people have said, it could be a 'flatline', which will be temporary thing.

 

Stop the pornography and masturbation. Don't be too rigid with this 90 day thing as it may be longer. This 'test' has not helped you! Keep going man.