hey all, i just relapsed..... feeling on edge and kind of sad but also i just want to live my life and excell my ability to feel and love and become a greater more genuine sensitive person, and i dont want to let a relapse ruin my love, my live, my ability to change and develop. I am making a renewed commitment to pursue my health and growth and experience without porn and cyber addiction, masturbation addiction. i want to love my body, and my mind, and the people in my life, and i just know that this is causing me harm. I went clean for 8 days, i know not very long, but i really want this to be a new start and to let myself be brave and seriously commit. thanks for the support.
I want to know as well, we demand answers. Anyway, assuming I don't slip in the next hour and 40 minutes, I'll be four days into September PMO free.
I'm going hard mode this month and this my day 1 the reasons for doing this are to regain connection to myself and to others, to be better me, to actually live the life that I can be happy with, to stop and end pornification, to really feel loved and cared about from a real person, to end this pain and to release myself from this torment, to actually have confidence in my self and to be truly me.
Struggling withwith P subs But hope my upcoming holiday will help with my reset and reboot Stay strong
I'm in. My problem isn't porn per se. Although I do look at it, since I got back with my ex girlfriend it really hasn't done much for me to be honest. But I've been masturbating at least twice a day, and I've been putting her in uncomfortable sexual positions these last few days (we are Christians and are seeking to abstain until marriage). I'm trying to do this because I want to try and see what a relationship with myself and also with another person would be like without sex as the focal point. Looking back on my life it seems that every relationship I've been in has been based on sex, and that just can't be healthy.
Still clean on day 5. I've been using music to distract myself when I feel like I might relapse, since it's impossible to run out of music and it always interests me. So far it's working for me, so maybe it'll work for someone else too.