Too manly

8 days is not enough to actually change much. What you experience i think is increase in testosterone that peaks after like a week or something not ejaculating. After a wile t Wil be back to normal. Evaluate how you feel after minimum of 30 days not 8.

 

So would you rather have less confidence / focus / libido / masculinity?

You're probably feeling anxious. You're feeling the tension of having too much unapplied energy. Feeling more edgy. Feeling how you would feel if porn wasn't in your life to help you escape your pain, problems, and negative experiences of reality.

You have high moral standards you say, but is that really true if you only stay true to that while you're numbed out from porn and masturbation? It's kind of like saying "I'm a good person, as long as I'm on my meds that turn me into a vegetable."

Yes, you'll have higher sex drive and become more temperate (actually feeling your emotions instead of dulling them out), but does that mean you go around fucking random people and lashing out at everyone you see? No, there are consequences and you have a choice to learn how to handle things better when you aren't escaping reality.