Hello From Sin City (Las Vegas)

I moved to Las Vegas in 2005 from Silicon Valley and it was a blessing in disguise. My 1st Alcoholics Anonymous meeting was in 1988 in South Florida. I went to a half dozen meetings and said goodbye guys, you just aren't as interesting as my stripper girlfriends down the street.

In 1993 moved to Silicon Valley to pursue the Tech Dream, but was not equipped with the life skills to succeed. Within a week, I was in jail on public intoxication after being thrown out of a strip club. By 1998, accumulated 2-3 more of those and 2 Driving under the influences arrests - all relating to strip club shenanigans. Went to AA meetings for next 5 years and stayed out of strip clubs. Stayed abstinent from alcohol for 1.5 years, then another 1.5 years, then 9 months, 6 months, 3 months and then off to the races I went again. Each relapse was 1-2 drinks on a 1st date with a girl cuz I wanted to get off the question of "why aren't you having a drink also" and get into her pants.

Turned 40 in 2003, and decided all my drinking problems, strip club and pornography issues were the result of not having a loving, caring, responsible relationship with a girl since I was 20 years old. So I married the first qualified one that came my way. Fucked that deal up real good - took her out on our 1st date to a strip club, lol. We were both in that "romantice love" phase for about a year with wild sex. I started drinking socially but also started sneaking back into the strip clubs by myself.

My 1st inclination that i may be a sex addict was in 2001 and went to a dozen or so SA or SAA meetings. Stop going cuz I was hearing some really weird stuff guys were into and couldn't relate. I just loved good ole fashion pussy whether it came from a strip club, grocery store or on the internet. But in California strip clubs closed at 2am so there was always a cutoff time, after which I would have to leave or get escorted out and then go home and jerk off.

Long story short: After moving to Vegas it was ON - 24x7 whatever you want. Anytime, anywhere like drive thru fast food business. My drinking and strip club visits became vacations - some lasting several days or weeks at a time. My wife couldn't put up with me and i couldn't put up with her. At the time, I ignorantly thought how dare she violate my privacy by hunting me down at dozen or so of my favorite watering holes (that had a smorgasbord of exotic girls on poles) and/or interrupting me while jerking off after I got home and thought i had safely snuck back in unnoticed while she was asleep.

Eventually hit rock bottom, gave up the bottle, and got a solid grounding of sobriety - alcoholically speaking. Divorced, I started dating a stripper for a few months, but that was too much maintenance and hassle, so got more and more into isolated internet porn. Easier, safer, quicker and less expensive.

Thanks for listening and look forward to being a part NoFap