Help! Addicted to Escorts

I can't make out with them so that's a dealbreaker for me with escorts.

 

the more i talk about escorts makes me feels more disgusted with my past experiences actually

 

Try to keep away. That's the only thing anyone can tell you.

I saw 12 escorts in last 1 year. That's how porn addiction graduates. I used to crave for them before meeting them but the moment I used to touch them I knew something was wrong. But, the force of habit used to push me over and I used to leave the place dejected and super depressed. PMO didn't harm me. Seeing escorts did. I lost an upward of $15,000 seeing escorts. I brought self-shame and self loathing. It's been almost 5 months that I haven't seen any. I have put my money to better use. Why does an escort deserve my hard earned money ? I would rather spend tons and tons on my wife. When I tried to leave the habit, it was hard, I went crazy. I used to shiver because my body wanted it. I used to travel to another country just to do it because I didn't want anyone to know (That's why it cost so much). I stopped travelling. I have set up an amazing side business for half that cost.

Prostitutes don't deserve our bodies, time or money. We are better than that.

 

If you still have a desire to use escorts then it would be better to stay out of a committed relationship until you can determine what is driving the compulsion. If you are past the desire to utilize escorts then I would probably not volunteer the information to a partner. There are, however, two conditions in which you should tell a SO about this type of behavior: if the SO asks you directly if you have been with escorts/prostitutes/paid sex, or if you start using escorts etc while with the SO. This is, needless to say, more than a matter of general ethics and sound relational behavior, it is also one of public health. If you transmit an STD to someone else there can be any number of repercussions, including legal action (tort injury or if STD transmission proven willful, a criminal charge)

 

i dont really have a compulsion to see a escort ,i just long for a female companionship ,what is a SO

 

Significant Other, like a girlfriend or boyfriend

 

lol, ain't that the truth? sperm is also know for pornographic material as well too when men "masturbate" to it or they buy their playboy magazines at the store. it's nothing magical about that stuff like energy etc.

 

my confession ,the last couple times i was with a escort, i experienced E.D ,and i did not have a O ,they seemed very very disappointed ,i feel more disgusted i dont know why, they are attractive looking but i just cant no more,i look at they arm an i see a band aid where doctors insert needles to check your blood, i cant imagine how many blood checks they get,

 

That's happened to me. I was going to so many I burnt out my body or my mind or both. I'm trying a longer reboot - but I'm getting some real urges to go see hookers.....

 

i just tell myself its because my mind an body doesnt want to lose the essence within, because i still feel great, wake up early get things done, im in a great mood, it just bothers me i dished out that money when it could be still in my hands this weekend, ill see how strong the urges well become in a week or so ,lately ive been relapsing alot at 2 weeks ,something new always shows up just to have us fail, but we can do it,

 

i moved out of my one bedroom apartment an decided to move into a 2 bedroom basement suite that i now share with my grandma an i never realized how much she keeps tabs on me now, constantly asking where im going, where am i sneaking off to at 9pm at night?? i just tell her im going downtown i well be back later, when really im trying to sneak to the brothel , we had dinner at a greek resturant yesturday , my favorite dish, the lamb souvlaki , we are there eatting an shes asks where was i last night?was i seeing call girls? i was shocked she asked an i dont lie to my granma so i said yes i was now leave me alone, then she spits the spew i well get stds i well get aids, never under esitime your grandparents they use to change your diapers i dont know how they know they just know what your up to,

 

Yeah, grandmas will surprise you. She sounds like a good influence , though I'm sure you find her nosiness an aggravation . It may work to your advantage.

 

Be kind to her. She might lead you out of this.

 

She knew man. I hope this pushes you onto the right track. I really myself had struggled badly with this area. One reason why I no longer see these types of ladies is I dont like the calling process and texting process it took to meet them. It is so unnatural. How much and long and all that. And if the woman had a nice personality or not.The whole ordeal isn't right. Sex wasn't ever meant to be used in such a way.