Day 3: Is this even possible on willpower? (PMO + drugs). I'd truly appreciate any help or advice.

I feel quite sad for you for using marijuana and other things. I hope one day you will break off your old habits including the pornography habit. And I wish you good luck in your recovery process mate.

 

No problem. Just a bit worried about your bad habits thats all. I hope one day you will manage to break them, even with meds, lol.

 

That's how it is at the beginning. Everyone is not sure how exactly they feel. They could be having mixed feelings about it. I know from my side of view, I will be going through a lot of pain overcoming my urges. I call them sith urges from star wars. I found a diagnosis for them. lol.

 

Wow this is insane. Wishing you the best. How are other aspects of your life through all this like work/school/friendships? Welcome distractions or bags full of triggers? Seriously hoping I return to see that number turn from 3 to 4, keep it up!!

 

Just trying to hold it in and making it to next week. Nothing to do this weekend except just relax and be bored. Which is a big trigger for my urges. I call them my sith urges. From star wars. I am sorry that you relapsed but am hoping you will recover again soon enough.

 

Hey man, just offerin best tips I can. You're in deep. Especially since it's not just one addiction, but a lot. But, THERE IS FREEDOM. That being said, it is NOT easy. You can go a few days on willpower, as you've seen. That being said, you LITERALLY cannot continue indefinitely on willpower. You CANNOT be FREE of addictions while living THE LIFE OF AN ADDICT. Something in your life has brought you here, and you can't expect yourself to one day wake up cured because you "want" to. You have to literally change your life. Change your lifestyle. Your Habits. Your pasttimes. See a counselor. It starts with saying you're in 100 percent.
Delete ALL of your pornography. ALL of it. ALL OF IT. Delete anything related to your porn habit, that will trigger you. Social Media is a no go. Notice your triggers and DON'T go there. Make a no tolerance policy for it. I'd get rid of coffee and caffeine too just for a while. You'll sleep better, which is important. Go to bed by 10:00/11 at the latest. Wake up by 7 am. Don't sleep in. You'll find that as you go longer and longer without ejaculating, you wake up easier. It's real weird, but you sleep better.
CHANGE your life. If you compose music, then put it on the cloud, and work at a library. Put accountability software on ALL your devices (covenant eyes, K9), and have an accountability partner. Start a workout program. Don't overdo it so that you don't hurt yourself, start off small, but STICK WITH IT. I started off with 40 minutes of light walking a day. Cut out all junk food out of your diet. Start eating healthy. ZERO HIGH SUGAR FOODS/DRINKS. EVER. You will start to lose weight and get in shape. Get rid of all your cigarettes, lighters, vapes, whatever. All your beer.
SEE A CSAT (Certified Sex Addiction Therapist) counselor. Start taking up another productive hobby. Find stuff to FILL your time with. Instead of making instant meals, learn to cook. Spend as much time as you can cooking. OCCUPY your time. Get involved in a church. You need to realize that you can't keep the same habits and lifestyle without staying addicted. Realize that you are not your habits, but your habits make you. No videogames/TV either. At least for a while. If you're bored, GO OUTSIDE and read a book. Stay away from the house as much as possible. I'll leave a lot of it up to your discretion, but you need to find an entirely new lifestyle, that fits around your passion (Music), and build a new life around it. Find enough stuff to pack a schedule full from morning to night, and don't give yourself bored time. Get the book Breaking the Cycle, read it, and DO ALL OF THE EXERCISES it gives you. They DO help. There's hope bro. And I say that your lifestyle is essential: I went an entire summer with I think MAYBE a single light urge. Because I was productive, because I was busy, all the time, because I ate well, because I had a new life. I went 82 days without masturbating, when I'd never even made it to a month before. That being said: I got back to college, and went back into my old habits of staying up late and playing videogames, and within a few weeks I was back on porn. I'm working on it right now, going after recovery wholeheartedly still, but your LIFESTYLE will be a huge determinator.

Finally bro, YOU WILL RELAPSE. Don't shame yourself. Every SINGLE TIME you say no to your brain wanting addiction, you slowly rewire it. Relapsing once isn't the end of the world. Just don't binge. Every recovery plan requires a lot of trial and error. Learn from the pros, the ones who have recovered. Look at J.K. Emezi at pornreboot. Great recovery coach. the most IMPORTANT THING is that you LEARN from your relapse. Learn why you messed up, and make sure it doesn't happen again. If you need anything shoot me a message. Never giveup.

Be smart about your recovery: It's NOT about willpower, it's about learning about your addiction and how to strategically destroy and uproot it. Fill the void with meaning, fill it with productivity and a new life.
See ya soon.

 

It won't last forever no. New habits and the brain will rewire. Baby steps. Celebrate one day, then 3, then 7 days. Then 14. A man can withstand anything as long as it is not forever.